A few times in my life I’ve asked for an answer specifically. Does it really matter to whom? To the ether, the universe, some higher power or, the ones that run the simulation? Once you’ve gone through stages of healing, you start wondering what more is out there again. You’ve ran the same path countless times and forgotten the pain and desperation you had in the beginning of the journey. Every step forward has taken you farther away from the wreckage, from the person you once were.
Why would you step away from this seemingly peaceful place? Maybe you’ve learned that no matter the outcome of the new adventures, it actually is better moving than being in the wondering waiting place. World and opportunities slipping by. Maybe it is also not so scary to fail. So what if you do? Embarrassment for what? From who? Does it really matter so much? No, not really.
Running path is always waiting, if the roof comes down again. One foot in front of the other. Just move! The training is over for now.
Song of the day: Lana Del Rey - Summertime Sadness