How about we try working with the idea that there is NO meaning to life

I rather have headache.
My life should have a meaning,because it's my choice, but sometimes I go to far, trying to find the reason for everything happening around me.

If an earthquake happens in my area, that just part of the play, non of business why that happened, but I have to choose how to react to it, and that's when I search for a reasonable reaction, a meaningful reaction. Though maybe I need to know the reason for that earthquake to know how to react.

I don't know really, I'm still experiencing, trying...