It Was Never Wonderland
I won’t go back down this rabbit hole
To play another game
Of cat and mouse with you.
You’ll just lose me in the maze you made
Out of all the lies you sold to me
I’m still not sure how to sort them out Into the tiny of slivers of truth
Buried in all your bullshit
Besides, I’m never quite sure
Which of us is predator
And which is prey
Neither of us has that time to waste
I’m not Alice
And you’re not the hatter.
How is it that I still love you
Even though I know
You are not anything you told me?
How is it that I still need you?
Despite the gaping wound you left in me?
Why do you tangle me in your web?
When now you’ve got everything you said you need?
Why do you still pull at my heartstrings
If you’re really happy?
These questions shouldn’t matter to me
Because I set you free
But I still wish every piece of you
Still belonged to me.