I know I have disappeared from here for the longest time and I have to be honest, that I was having a hard time. Don't get me wrong I am already very lucky having the life I have right now and have been visiting the places that never in my life have I imagined before.
I tried so hard to remind myself how lucky I am to be healthy and alive, eating good food and doing whatever I want to do. But sometimes , the fact that I haven't been feeling okay and can't stop the constant overthinking. A few posts ago, I wrote a post about the positive thinking and I really try to be as positive as I can but today I just really want to admit myself that I couldn't and it's hard.
Today I am struggling and I have been for the longest times in the past years until I can remember. but these days it's extremely hard.
Dear me,
Help to calm my anxious heart . Fill me with confidence , positive thoughts , instead of fear and doubts.
Help me to forgive those that have hurt me.
Help me to let go of things that I cannot change.
Help me and recover myself from the ways I have treated myself poorly physically and mentally.
Help me to see the good around me, the good in others and the good in myself.
Lastly help me to realize that the future holds so much more than I can imagine.
Thank you everyone for your constant love and support. especially to 
