Poetry: Therapy Sessions

Woke up in a place id never seen before
and all the clothes that I'd worn
now littered the floor.
Flashes of the night before
flooded my mind,
Lying in the back of an explorer
Blurry highway signs...

A dark room and a strangers eyes.
"Shhhh....just go to sleep"
I heard you speak
but I couldnt relax
So you fed me more xanax.
because I wasn't asleep.
then I couldn't move
I was slurring my speech,
like you wanted me to.

My eyes were heavy.
and my mind wasnt there
I saw you watching
You sat and you stared

and you waited
until sleep took me over
I couldnt see that I'd been baited
until it was already over

I could see you
and I didn't know you...
I couldn't keep my eyes open

...I couldn't keep my eyes open

I just couldn't focus.
I just couldn't fuckin' focus

Then you walk around acting like your soul is holy
As if the lord above us could never see you fully

You're nothing but trash disguised as bad vibes
You can run your whole life,
but you can't escape your mind

You'll never erase the shit you've done to me
and I promise you,
I'm not looking for some bullshit apology

I'm locked in the prison that you built and called mine
but you're the only one here that should be doing this time!

So Fuck you
and every word you've ever fuckin' said to me
Take your fuckin drugs and stay the fuck away from me

I drove you to the airport because it meant you'd be gone
but you came the fuck back!
You were supposed to be gone

Searching for peace in every place that I'll be
Keep your black soul back!
All you do is remind me!
I'm not your fuckin' friend, and you will never be mine
If you see me again, don't try to act like shit's fine.