Suspicious

SUSPICIOUS LOVE

Your love is so suspicious
Ignoring all my calls
Your love is so suspicious
It seems all I do is fall
.

You're never there to catch me
you just watch me pass
why are you still pretending?
you never loved me back
.

You pull me down to lift me up
Nothing is fair in love and war
Like now I see it's clear as fuck
which one of us would love who more
.

I think about you constantly
You're everything that haunts my dreams
but all the things you wish I was
are all the things I'll never be
.

It's like this is all a game to you,
like all you've got is shit to prove
I'm trapped inside the web you drew
I can't believe I fell for you
.

I climbed out of my rabbit hole
and jumped through hoops to get to you
but all you see in all I do
are all the things that bother you
.

And I can't love a boy who lies
and swears to God that he loves me
when he just wants to get ahead
and I just want to lay in bed
.

So where's the loss in giving up
on something that was never real?
if this is love, than fuck all this
It's nothing that I wanna feel!