It is everything to me, I always felt like my world will crumble if I stopped. I am drawn to it as it is drawn to me .....They said I was heading for the wrong direction for wanting it so badly. Most times I try to withdraw but find myself drowning more in it. Being afraid of how I will be mocked if everyone turned out to be right was not really an option because the world was dead to me as I was to it. Was i really blind or was I the only one seeing and the rest of the world blind. There was nothing else that mattered. It was worth more than the purest of diamonds, gold and all the precious jewels in the world put together. It was priceless and only a few privileged could actually see. If only the world could see it from my perspective, if only they knew it as much as I do, it filled all the vacuum in my soul. There was nothing I had that I didn't offer. Am lost but yet found in it, i let go of my thoughts and thousand worries just to have a thought of it. I will give my all in all without a second thought willingly in my conscious and unconscious state. Eternity is only but a starting point with it. Was I truly programmed this way? Is my algorithm in an endless loop? Could this be what am thinking, am I really...................... Stopping is not an option now, if only I knew the end from the beginning.
