All that was left was the smallest of shards,
Thin fine crisp remnants I needed to guard.
When you trampled upon them crushing them so,
I lost the last piece of that girl that you know.
Do not think I am jesting don't assume me away,
I lost the last piece of myself yesterday.
Empty on cruise control am sailing now,
Still breathing heart beating it baffles me how.
Existing as nothing I know this is not,
As I imagine that nothing does not feel like rot.
Yes every last cell that is inside my being,
Is festering bubbling most disagreeing.
I wish I could somehow escape from this cell,
Each moment that passes chained tighter to hell.
I have no idea what to do from here on,
This limbo I live has continued to long.
I wish you could actually hear what I say,
Your instinct always is a head turn away.
Crushed to near nothingness sand in a pile,
I swept it all up wearing a pretend smile.
