sickening words, puked out of the system.
but the toxic remains.
i'm observing silently; what's her next move?
how can she be so heartless, so cruel?
how can she speak of such evil, when she declares that she loves him?
i'm sitting in the corner, watching, listening.
the puzzle did not make sense to me.
the more i look at it, the more puzzled i become.
how could someone who demands such perfection of others' moral compasses,
someone who seems flawless and of such high standards on the surface,
be so cold and self-centered inside?
she moves quietly, disguises her cunningness with meticulous care.
but to me, she is an open book, waiting to be read.
the mechanical movements; the narrow-minded banter; the showcase of affection in front of others as if she's fishing for jealousy -
they are simply technicalities of a larger problem.
the problem being that she is afraid to be hurt.
therefore, she'd rather be cold and detached.
treading through life by using others instead of being used;
only interacting with those who have a certain value that appeals to her,
that assists her advancement and development;
climbing up a ladder that leads to god-knows-where.
but in the end, i'm afraid she will only end up being alone.
not capable of tolerating and loving others selflessly.
it's a sad, sad sight - to see that she won't ever experience the kind of enlightening experience.
this moment of epiphany, this moment of complete calmness,
this moment of real happiness - will not reach her...
unless she changes the way she views things now.
throw away that pretentious moral compass that she secretly defies anyway.
rewrite the Code. perceive things differently, from a higher point of view.
relieve unnecessary stress created out of exaggeration.
stop using and start giving.
connect rather than contract.
open the heart, and breathe in deeply whenever it begins to put up those barriers.
breathe out and knock down those barriers.
welcome new experiences.
you're young.
you're mighty.
enjoy the grandeur and idiosyncrasies of life, but only enjoy it with someone that you're not in some sense, exploiting...
enjoy it with someone who you genuinely like to spend time with, because of that natural bond you two share, and the selfless love that you have for each other.
that is the harmony that keeps the world going round and round...