A personal eulogy from my grave
As the title says..... I write this from my grave, yes, I'm dead. My word is a word of peace, a word of encouragement, a word of reproach, a word from whom death was not so polite to spare.
The events that led to my death where not so much tragic, i was eaten slowly by a sickness, bit by bit, until I could not take it anymore. I had to let go. Today my word however, is not about the cause of my death, but rather a word of "if only"
Lying in my grave, I replay my life, I pause, I rewind, I slow down. I see the good times I had and I smile. I see the most pressing times and I cry. I see moments of bad decision and I regret. There's nothing more I can do.
But you... yes you who's reading still has a chance to make ammends.
There are times in my life, when I was consumed in a lot of bitterness, a lot of anger, lots of regrets of failed relationships, failed attempts to make myself better, angry about my past. But as l lie down in my grave, I see that dwelling in the past failures did not do me any good.
Had I dealt with my anger and bitterness, had I took every challenge as an opportunity, I would have been a better person. I would have achieved more than I have, I would loved more, cared more, laughed more, danced more, traveled more. I would have done a hell lot of things. But I spent my life consumed by my past.
But you, yes you, you are alive, you still have a chance, a chance to let go, a chance to live more, a chance to tell that person that you love them. Use it wisely.
Now I lie in my grave and wonder how a better person I would have been. There's nothing as more depressing, knowing that you can't undo that which you would had undone had you been able to.
Hear and listen to the words of the wise, listen to what I have to say. I say "wise" because I have experienced what you haven't.
Love more, live more, forgive, tolerate, risk more. Life is good and life is a blessing, you have only one chance, enjoy it.
For you are still alive, and still have a chance to make amends.
