Love lost is one of the most hurtful things a human being can through. Experiences with another person you love can never be taken for granted...But sometimes things have to be a certain way for a reason, even if we do not like the outcome..even if we fight for it...even if we know that things should have been different.....

"Words"

Sometimes I wonder if you'll read the words, then maybe you'll get it
How im sittin' here wishin that things were different
why did you have to put me in this position? it was fear ....
fear of the unknown, of what could possibly happen...
But look now...shit is all backwards, our love vanished like magic...
It was a long ride, I kept my belt fastened and tight...lookin' for the light
it was a long time you were lookin for a fight
And it left me feelin' like....damn, why do I even try?
and when you tell me now its different, its hard to see why
My eyes...they swell from the tears, all the years we shared
all the laughs and smiles....coupled with a lasting frown
strange how the bullshit that we go through, we pass it down
feels like my hearts been hammered down, and I wonder where im goin
If things will work out....or if im just hopin...will i still grow?
I have to....because this shit wasn't for nothin..
it really hurt sometimes to think, that I really wasnt your husband...
You are my wife, marriage meant a lot to me...
the vows I took now...just seem like hypocrisy
Assurance is what we both needed to survive this...
but theres a lot to put behind us, there's a whole new world to begin in
can't help but thinking you wanted me to leave...
I cant help but feeling like im sufferin' to breathe...
Right now thing's are split, but maybe one day they wont...
until then I have to focus on myself..and my own growth...