busy day i had , but here i am again ,talking with this invisible presence that doesn't exist in my coordionate of time and space but always in my soul , with a smile that appears and the eyes of a kid waiting for my words to be written .
bad things will always happen ,they are the only things that will define how much stronger the walls we built in our world , i want to embrace your imperfections before your perfections because perfections are easy to love by the weak (but i am a strong woman ), i want to complet the empty spaces in you ,I want to hold your hands and face the storms ,so we can stand stronger then before .
about the poetry i will try to recored it tomorrow (i am sorry ) , with an arabic song you said ? ,i really love singing arabic classic songs but it will be an independant file, so u will enjoy them spearelty , and yeah arabic is my native language ,i wanted to say," i started writing in arabic since last year " but i wrote instad in the last email " reading it "haha.i meant i started writing poetry , and i was surprised how beautiful and huge the language is , probabely one day i ll teach u arabic ;) .i like how you learned so many languages , i can see that you can learn things easly :D
about working in company i m glad that you share the same point of view , i like my time so much so i dont want to wait for the week -end to celebrate my life like a machine , and i dont think working on company will serve anyone , cause your creativity will be limited , you will be limited so i dont like that .i have some other plans and still looking for more :D .now that you are my partner on my trips , i have more motivation for " how can i realise it :)?"
about my mother , she s this traditional woman , you know ? the kind of persons that give everything even her self , so she always lose it in the hand of others , i grew up fearing to be like her, and i am not , she loved my father so mush that she didnt want to divorce even after all the pain , verbal and physical violence she suffered form and i think one of the reasons why she didn't marry tel now is because she still loves him , i see that in her eyes everytime he come to pick me up or everytime she ask me if he asked about her :/ i feel so sad how her love is wasted in the wrong place .so sad that she didnt give her heart a chance to fly again , she deserve love back but i think she convienced her self that she doesnt .she s the opposite of me , she dont like to go out , explore ,and face fear , she too much like afraid of changing things, i want if she can focus on her self a little bit :(
btw i have 2 half little sisters ,sara and assia from my half mother , they are nice but we dont usualy spend too much time together .but i really loved them so much, also my half mother she s nice and we have a very good releshionship :)
so yesterday , i had a dream , it was in casablanca my grandmother's house ( family house ) and there they was organising a weading for a girl in our family ( she had a weading this last summer already) then it was a guy , who fellowed me everywhere i go ,we didnt talk and i was scared at the begining but then he show up in our house , he seems familer to my family member .i was surprised and i think we talked after that but i cant remember anything excpet the bride with her husband and me wearing a white morrocan dress. was you that guy ? how could you ? how dare u ?how could u come again to morroco and fellow me without talking withme ?
i know you are sleeping now , i m on my bed too about to sleep, "i ll remember my dream " , good night my sky .
i want to meet you in my dreams without our subcon playing tom and jerry games (like our dreams of yesterday :p)