I am tired. This body of mine is tired. This is not poetry, it is not a song, a verse. This is something untamed, unnamed spilling from beneath me, from those dark places.
It is inspired by Awon Goons MI by Olamide. Its background vocals and beat just take me away to places. This is how we roll over here.
AWON GOONS MI
Awon goons mi,
Broken bits of a song
Fall from my lips
As I cuddle this memory
Like a Polaroid,
Like a link to something beautiful.
I will never have the song,
The complete symphony
Will never come to me.
Awon goons mi,
Let this warped being be.
Let his lips shudder around words,
Let it shuffle among dead verbs,
Vowels and consonants that echo,
That freeze like ice,
Like a broken heart.
Let his teeth cackle violently
Like cowries on the feet
Of ancestral spirits.
Awon goons mi,
Ha! You should see me feet,
Running through this bleeding soil,
Seeking for home,
For the fading scent of love,
Tangling ghosts like cobwebs,
Like brambles and electric lines.
You should see me hands,
Picking up strays;
Abandoned babies, aborted foetuses,
Orphaned destitutes.
This is how family be made.
Awon goons mi,
Let me come and go
Like a distant party,
Like the sea on the shore,
Tides lulled by the moon.
Let me come and go
Like your memory,
Like pain and joy
Like this fleeing wind on my roof
Singing its own song;
Let me be! Let me be!!
Awon goons mi,
Let this warped, broken soul
Breathe down your neck
And tell you its tale.
Let it sit with you,
Hold your hands
And take you to its hell.
Don't you want to see?
Don't you want to understand?
I thought you had a solution,
Why do you shift back?
You are scared, are you not?
You are wise.
Awon goons mi,
Let me lay here for a sec.
I want to watch the stars blink.
I want to watch the moon sigh.
I want to watch the universe
Take its first breath.
I want to see the sun kiss
The feet of the moon
As dawn wraps the night
With light;
I wanted to be free.
Awon goons mi,
Let this warped bones be;
He has had enough.
We will be what we will be
And we will be broken
If it has to be so
But we will shine nonetheless.
You'd like that, won't you?
Yes we will shine
Until the last verse
Of the broken song,
Until the last exhale,
Until the sky dims
And the earth quietens.
©warpedpoetic, 2018.