I am a home educating mom of 2 little ones (can't wait to post about this), and I've always found it hard to stay consistent with routines, especially with things I want to do for myself. I cannot count how many times I've felt inspired to start something (like posting on Steemit), start gaining momentum with it, start forming it into a habit, and then something like [child no.2 gets hand foot and mouth] (like just recently) or [child 1 gets nasty stomach bug] happens that needs my full attention, so it throws me off completely and means I have to abandon most plans for that week. And then it usually puts me back to square one. And honestly, sometimes it really sucks, and it gets a bit discouraging.
A little story on the same note: Until very recently, I have actually been studying for a university degree (mostly in Maths) for 5 years. I started this degree after having my first, and it was pretty doable most of the time. My plan was to finish my degree before (even thinking about) having another, and then, the universe decided to surprise us with my 2nd when I still had 1/3 of my degree left to do. This last year was meant to be my final 2 modules, and the truth is I did pass them all. But my degree results reflected the lack of consistency I was able to give it, because I could never really give it my (true) all, so although I could have graduated this year, I've decided to take a year's break, and continue studying next year to improve my results, because that is what I want for myself.
Sometimes I think I'm just making excuses for myself and I'm being lazy for not trying harder to stay consistent with certain plans in life. Sometimes I wonder if this is the universe's way of keeping me on my toes, and making sure I am always being flexible and resilient. Sometimes I wonder if it's a sign to just stop trying to add more things to my plate, and just focus on home educating and being a parent (which is quite frankly a full time enough job). But more often than not, I think the universe is just testing to see how much I really want something...
I'm still trying to figure it all out. But one thing I do know is that what I want for myself does matter, and it's up to me, what I want to do about that. All I can do is keep going! And as Dory would say:
SIde note: I do hope I will be able to post on Steemit more regularly, but I'm currently going through a very peculiar phase in my life that is requiring a ton of inner work, so that is where most of my spare time is going. I do try to check out other people's posts and comment on a daily basis though!
Thanks for reading! I always appreciate all the support and engagement I get from this community, so please do comment if this resonates with you in any way!
Love from Redrica