Stepping outside the box. Part 3
Recently, my mind has opened to many new things and clarified many things I had misconstrued. Today I will be writing about something I was massively wrong about.

~Wearing Diapers_Urination

No offense to anyone (unless you want to be offended) please read all the way through to see how my point of view is changing and has changed.

A peek into my past.
Having worked with over 60 different animals, children, the elderly, and people in general, urination and diapers are not something I ever thought about in terms of sex. Knowing everyone has to wear diapers at some point in their life or they would just piss and shit where ever they want, still didn't make me feel better. I have known that everything urinates (or has a form of urination ie: fish and birds) however, I never could see this as something sexy. Now, mind you, I have never held it against those who do find urinating sexy, I have thought in the past that someone seeing a diaper as sexy was to close to pedophilia for my taste.( read stepping out of the box part one and 2 to see how this opinion has changed) Coming up next you will see how I have had to change my opinions or hang up my sex life forever.

In my ignorance.
So, I felt that diapers were not sexy and urination was off-putting and even disgusting and have never considered anything to do with either. I also never thought I would be put in a position to have to expect someone else to be turned on looking at me(The once-proud Domme/Mistress) in a diaper or urinating. I have been so ashamed to even try anything for years. How can I try if I don't expect anyone to feel something I myself cant feel?

The Sexual tigress in me.
From a young age, I was always a nymphomaniac and a very sexual, sensual person. I have explored many, many areas of the BDSM/Fetish communities and love most things and like less and absolutely hate or don't want anything to do with very few things, while still accepting that it is just the right cup of tea for others. On my list of Hard-Limits were always diapers and urine. Could I have changed my mind?

Why I have changed.
While I was pregnant with my children, the way they were positioned, and how they pressed into my bladder weakened my control. After my last child, if I didn't go to the bathroom right away and I coughed or sneezed, I would leak and be absolutely devastated if I was in public. I tried pads, extra thick, long, nighttime, wings, and even poise for elderly or pregnant women with bladder control issues. Then I got really sick and went to the hospital the nurse was changing my catheter and the doctor walked in I felt a tug and just that quick she had taken away the last of my control. I can get up and leak, I can walk 5 feet and leak, I can have just pissed like Austin Powers for 3 minutes straight and get up from the toilet and before I make it into the shower (which is literally one step from the toilet), pee is running down my leg.

Why this is a good thing.
Being in this predicament has helped me see that I need to broaden my spectrum and step outside of my comfort zone. I have learned that just because I have to wear a diaper it does not make me childlike in any way shape or form. I am still embarrassed about this but I have to buck up and accept the changes and change my way of thinking. Stepping outside the box is the only way I can do that.

For the record, I have nothing against 2 individuals that are both adults and consent.

What's coming up?
Not sure but I am working on a few items.