Maybe life is just a life... And all your dreams and wonders for something wonderful don't really last. We us human beings usually are disappointed by the reality because we always want more and better it's never good enough for us what we have. Well for most of us. So maybe we need to realise it's just a life and reality is what it is and we need to learn to appreciate what we have and what other do to make us feel good. And just be happy that we have enough to make ourselves mediocre and we can try to be better by appreciating what we already have. Just smile a bit often and try to love yourself and your life a bit bigger and maybe then all will be okay as it is....