This is not my physical body.

This is not me.
This is not my physical body.
I can't feel that I drive myself anymore.

I can't control my grip on the objects I'm holding. I can't even walk straight and firmly. My body seems like falling down on earth.

I am clumsy but this time it's different.
I know this is weird.

Even in holding my phone, pen and small things, I know that I am holding them but they are drifting apart on my hand.
Deep inside my mind, I know I could prevent them from falling but my flexes are too slow.

My vision also blurs too much and frequently.
I can't hear clearly that's why I don't know if I'm speaking moderately or too loud.
This also cause unbalance in my posture especially when I'm walking.

I am not like this.

I apologize for posting too much sentiments here.
I just wanted to release this uneasy feelings through writing and hoping that somebody out here could relate and understand me, and might give me advice.
Thank you