It's too uncomfortable even if I have more space when, like today, in sitting right next to the emergency exit. I'm not sure why but there's something I don't like about having two clumsy - sometimes more, depending on the size of the plane - blocking my way, I kind of feel like cornered (not to be confused with claustrophobic though).
In a practical situation this feeling means nothing. In case there's a real emergency, odds are we would all be dead before in able to even tell them move your lazy ass and let me through. Besides, where would I go? To the secret part of the plane where survivors of the movie hang out? Yeah, I didn't think so.
I guess it's more of a Psychological background but I'm not a psychologist to try and analize this situation. I did study a bit less than 3 semesters of psychology but I didn't have time to finish keep going, after all was in 7th semester and close to getting my Marketing degree and I was already working full time for Walmart in the are of strategic planning.
I'm giving out to much personal information to the Blockchain, am I?
Well back to my thoughts. I bet all of you Europeans thought I didn't like flying in the window seat because I don't like nagging other people to let me through when I need to stretch my legs or go to the toilet. But you see, Latinos don't see these kind of situations where you have to speak to strangers as something worth of social anxiety or shyness kicking in or attack on personal space, we actually enjoy interacting with strangers.
I'm not saying it's a good or a bad thing, it's just a cultural difference. When I was younger, much much younger, I was just too shy and incredibly socially awkward to dare even speak to strangers, I couldn't even order a pizza by myself. As I got older I started to learn how to manage these emotions. Now I really enjoy talking to people and I am always - or at least 99% of the time - in control of my emotions. Unless when I'm having a heated argument with blunt headed stubborn cows, but that rarely, extremely rarely, happens, because then I let shit hit the fan heavily, but that's not the point.
Speaking about emotions. Have you heard that Gillette wants men to show emotion? That's pretty cool right? I mean, there shouldn't be anything wrong in that. The problem is these progressive morons now are labeling the act of not showing emotion as toxic masculinity. Yeah, as it turns out, being manly is toxic. According to mainstream media, worldwide libertarian and progressive politicians, the new order is to have more effeminate men everywhere - in other words, Soyboys.
Well it's been almost two years since I joined the platform and I've refrained myself from speaking about politics and social issues but this has gone too far, I had to mention it somewhere and there's no better place to write freely without fear to being censored or deplatformed than the steem Blockchain.
Two words, fuck you Gillette, I'm never buying your brand ever again and I'm going to speak crap about you with everyone willing to have a conversation with me.
Yeah, those were more than two words. I guess I'm stupid now. But you see, I couldn't contain myself (that's part of the 1% of times I can't) and since this is a freewrite I can't really edit what I've written, I have to hit submit without going through the post re-reading, proofreading and spell checking.
I love freewriting. It's one of the best creative excercises I can do with just a pen and paper. Or fingers and keyboard, you get the idea. You let your mind wander, your ideas flow and your creativity dominate the situation.
You should try it. It has also helped me to be less of a perfectionist and learn to live with my errors and to accept them. Even if a typo looks horrible or my grammar is no better than a twelve years old, it came from me, so I better embrace it. Of course I'm not endorsing bad spelling and poor grammar on every post. I'm all about post quality and that means proofreading and spellchecking but for freewrites, those rules are off the table.
Besides, how do you expect to keep track of your writing style and ability to do so if you don't keep your drafts as they are? I have at least 30 freewrite posts and one of my favorite things to do is to re-read some of them, depending on the dates off my life I wrote them. It's the best window or sneak peak to myself from that time, to see what was going through my mind during those days, without edition, without censorship, just me, raw, direct.
These freewrites are mainly for me. They are kind of a message from my old self to my present self. Of course I like when someone reads them and interacts with me, and I love when people actually learn something from them or end up freewriting thanks to the post but, to be blatantly honest, if no one ever read them, I would still be writing them every time I have a chance. Because in the end, these freewrites are from me, to me.