Hello, everyone. It’s a cloudy Sunday morning here. How’s your day going? Gone to church yet if you are a Christian?
Today, I want to take about something I believe every Christian can relate with. Remember that point in your life when you feel like God isn’t there anymore? You know he’s close by but you just can’t reach him. That warm and conscious feeling you have all the time, that knowledge that he’s got you just isn’t there. You feel this hollow somewhere you do not know how to fill. You grasp and grasp, still nothing. Then, you begin to feel indifferent. You stop trying. You say to yourself that God is there anyway and he can see you so what’s the fuss? For some people, they never really come back from this stage. Everything falls apart there on. Sounds familiar?
Let me tell you a little story about myself. Few years ago, I was addicted to something. This addiction was eating me up. I just couldn’t stop even though I wanted to. I knew what I was doing wasn’t pleasing God and also wasn’t helping my Christian and spiritual life and I still couldn’t break free. I told myself that I wasn’t trying hard enough and I kept pushing, but nothing changed. At some point, I stop trying. I told myself that God could probably see what I was going through and should do something about it. I was angry, at myself and at God. That feeling passed too and I upgraded to indifference. I would just indulge whenever I felt like and move on. No feeling, no nothing.
But something happened one day. I was watching this series when I got to this particular scene. The lead actor was talking to a Reverend in the church. He told the Reverend that he wanted to be a better man. The Reverend asked him something. He said, “where did you start failing?” That question game me a pause. I asked myself the same thing, and I realised at that very moment, that I was doing it all wrong. I didn’t start failing when I got addicted. I started failing when I began to think that I could do it on my own. I started failing when I stopped letting God.
Most times when we get caught up somewhere or into some really bad, we might begin to think that we aren’t worthy of God anymore. We keep our heads low, struggling an struggling to no avail. While all we really have to do is to let God take over. Drop everything at his feet and tell him to do as he sees fit, not as you see fit, and believe me, it’s only a matter of time. God is just there waiting for us to say something even when we think he’s gone. For me, I said to him, “Father, it’s been too long.” I dumped everything at him and went about my business. Today, I don’t regret it one bit.
I’ll leave you with this quote I picked online sometime ago. It says:
God wanted to show off while creating you. He succeeded.
Let go and let God.
Have a lovely Sunday!
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