I still remember all l want is to buy Ice candy, 10 pesos each and the big bread like a pie with a yellow color inside. After I eat them, I feel I'm the only one happy in the world. Lol hahaha
A life without electricity back then was not easy, especially if you study at night. I'm still young, but I know what's happening in our family. if I just remember everything maybe, I can't take it anymore-all the trauma untill now I still carry every time my father is drunk. He always hurts my mom; I'm praying that he won't cause trouble every time he come home, sometimes my prayers came true but often is not. That's why it's always noisy and messy our house everytime he is drunk.
Even though were poor back then, I was still a child having dreams. I always have dreams of a happy family, a family doesn't fight and doesn't hurt my mom.
A happy family that has a big house. I imagine having a three-story house where I can create seven bedrooms, for me and for my siblings too, so that we can still live together. Have a big rooftop on top where I can put a simple swimming pool so that my niece and nephews enjoy swimming there. a big open kitchen in the first floor,to see the rice fields outside. If you are having a coffee in the kitchen, you will feel the fresh air there. (By the way, I want to put the swimming pool on the rooftop because our house is flooded area, everytime there is typhoon and the rain is heavy! surely our house is drowned in the flood.)
This dream of mine, I held onto not to give up. But when I lost my mom my life fell apart its broke me into pieces. She was the one who suffered the most in our family; all I want is to give the life she deserve! She's the reason,too, why I didn't want to marry before, because I didn't want to separated from her side. I want to taking care of her if she is old. I can't do that anymore to her.
I am currently living here in Metro Manila; I have a family now. we rent a house here, even though this is a studio type house. A small apartment, our living room and kitchen are so close. also, we have our own bathroom, and I am proud to say I am happy and contented with this life. _
Actually we have a small business. We have a cart, and we sell a fried chicken at night. we have our own place that we pay everyday at side of the road.
Not to brag, but I have a man who is very responsible in our life. He doesn't want me to left heavy things, especially when we're outside; he is the one carries our baby. He is the one who goes to the market to buy our needs, and he is the one who cooks our food, whether he is busy or not. He loves cook for us, and he cooks very well. Kaya nga pataba ako ng pataba haha lol (≧▽≦) He is kind; he has a emotional intelligence that everytime I make arti-arti sinusuyo na agad hahhaha he doesn't want our fight to last long. Also, he is the one who manage our business. The only thing I can help to him is the basic house chores like cleaning our house, doing laundry, and taking care our baby. We help each other, by the way.
My life now is very far from my dream life before. But I'm still happy because the happy life I prayed before is happening in my own family now. If God gives us an abundance of blessings and a good life like I dreamed of, I will definitely be grateful. But for now I'm so contented with this; we grow everyday and helping each other, and for me this is worth it.
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