I’m just noticing now, Its kind of funny my process for writing you daily. I have my basic format, but each day I delete what I wrote the night before and start fresh. Kinda like life right? We can have the rough outline but it’s up to us to overwrite yesterdays fears, sadness and worry and to start fresh.
I needed this day off. Could you tell?
My skincare client even got back to me mid day and BOY was I tempted to just jump right in, but the way I’ve been feeling can’t be allowed to continue by my refusal to be nice to myself. So I said “thanks for that, will take a look” and closed down slack.
Today was a typical aimless Dayle off-day. Got out of bed late, exercised, smoothie, posted my two hunts, dyed my hair and the rest of the day was just CHILLIN… with the exception of a bath it was pretty much my perfect down time day when I’m on my own…Also my hair is back to real, deep, electric blue, not faded weird purple gray, and looking in the mirror, I’m starting to recognize that badass I used to know… ;)
The 3 Things I’m Grateful for Today are…
- You. Duh ;)
- Exercise going awesome
- Food plans coming together
Those last two really need to go into the category of. I’m healthy damnit. That’s something I need to remember more and more. I have all my arms and legs, I don’t live in an hospital or have to go from specialist to specialist for some rare disease. I’m strong, and smart and of COURSE there’s a long way I need to go on the fitness tip, but I’m not wheelchair bound. I mean hell we walked 16 miles one day in Lisbon. The ability to do that is a freaking GIFT. And I’m going to stop being a jerk to myself. I’ve got to appreciate the body I have now, today… Without the IFS and SHOULDHAVES and BUTS… ok maybe the butt. I still need that… OH!
oh Lisbon... <3 Was actually thinking about it a lot today :)
My energy was trash for most of the day but I feel like I made the best of it, and I even devoted my time while watching the world cup to start meal prepping. I remembered I had a great healthy cookbook in my car, so I ran out and started flipping through the recipes…
The floor of my room now looks like a beautiful mind….
But I’m getting excited. I think I can do this. I have meal containers in my Amazon cart and after tomorrow I think Ill be ready to pull the trigger. It’s going to take about one day a week to sort out, but after that day is over I dont even have to THINK about food for the whole week.
Stupid not to do it, like you said, I have a freezer, and I’m going to commit to taking one day a week out for ME. To have a total nothing chill day of cooking and packing up boxes and taking baths and face masks or whatever else. The world can wait one day a week.
I mean hell. I LOVE cooking. Who knows maybe we can do a live stream of meal prep day- or I can take photos for blog posts and nomad pictures. I’m starting to feel the fog of confusion and fear lift and now that my little scheme is coming together I really think I can do this in a smart, time effective and less expensive way… So here we go!
Speaking of food, I took your advice and gave UberEats a shot tonight! They were running a free delivery promo code so I ordered 3 sushi rolls and it came SO fast. Awesome experience, will totally use that again when I’m in a jam. Or hanging with the family.
I hope you weren’t to worried about me today. I know you mentioned feeling mentally shot and I can’t help but think I had something to do with that. Maybe I’m pulling a classic Dayle and overthinking. But I know I was in a bad place this morning, I want u to know I’m starting to see the clouds part and I’m looking forward to pulling myself up from my bootstraps and just getting to it already.
I was pretty sure I wasn’t going to want to work out tonight because of how dead I was feeling this afternoon but I might get on the stability ball for a bit after this. The sushi was just enough of a light meal in this hot weather and It’s just turning 6pm so perfect amount of time to digest and use it as fuel for a workout before crashdown. I’m going to aim for 8:30 tonight. That gives me 9 hours, a decent shot at some rem… which could also be a huge culprit for my feeling so off and unfocused.
No matter what state I wake up in tomorrow. One thing I know for SURE is that I’ll wake up thinking of you. Hoping you had a killer morning, and one eyed clicking on your posts before saying my “morning bizaaaaa”s.
I love you mouse.
<3 Dot
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