Yesterday, I found out my grandparents decided to visit us today. The purpose was to deliver some documents with which my Mom would help, but since they were making this trip anyway, we anticipated that we'd spend some additional time together.
I had a bit of a busy morning - some minor household stuff and getting some groceries which I needed since this is my only day off to get them. Well, my grandparents arrived, I went off to the grocery store (which was busy! I forgot tomorrow is Superbowl Sunday), and came back to some very loud yelling.
Arguments are inevitable in my family, but this one was going quite far. I almost wanted to walk back out so I didn't have to hear the chaos. Within minutes, my grandparents had left, and we didn't even have a chance to say goodbye.
Wonderful little surprise - ruined. Oh well.
So here I am writing this out on Hive now instead of spending time with them.
Anyway, my meditation from the other day went quite well. It took me several minutes to gain control of my thoughts, clear my head, and calm my nerves, but I actually did it. This was definitely a big victory for me, as I've previously had almost no luck controlling it to this degree. Even if I'd calm myself for a few seconds, it would come back very quickly. It did not come back this time. I won!
Today, even though I'm somewhat calmer, I'll continue to practice meditation. Even with such little, inconsistent practice, I already managed to grab a victory. Imagine if I actually did this more frequently! I don't know why I stopped doing this several years ago.
In other news, I have only 9 more days of general medical floors left. Then I'm finished for good! (I may cover to cover someone's shift once in a while, but if it happens, it's going to be very infrequent - I don't mind one or two random days)
This has made me quite positive this week. I've even had a nurse comment how she noticed that I'm "glowing." The light at the end of the tunnel truly does shine!