The white interiors, white bedsheets, white curtains, doors, needles, drugs laying around, the sight of sick people and worried family members all in this building scares me more than anything.
Hospital, one place i hate to go to, it takes everything in me to make a trip to the hospital.
To start with the whole sad and tensed atmosphere surrounding this building irks me, the sight of sick and injured people and not to mention dead bodies can drive this young girl crazy, whenever I take a trip to the hospital I always have a sober reflection, how fickle life can be, you see someone today and tomorrow they are no more.
Whenever I visit the hospital i usually have flashes of funny images, images of dead bodies, dark staircases and dark corridors, yes I know, too many movies 🙈🙈 . Whenever I go visiting I always try to avoid dark and lonely paths (because of ghosts) as stupid as that sounds it’s just what goes through my head.
I am a very visual person, so forgive me if my photographic memory can’t forget things in a hurry.
On one of my visit to the hospital, something really sad happened, I had an appointment with my doctor, I wasn’t happy with my doctors diagnosis, I was already getting all sad and emotional so I left the hospital in a hurry, no one wants to stay in a hospital to begin with.
On this particular day when I was walking pass the Accident and Emergency Unit of the University of Benin Teaching Hospital, I heard a group of people, both women and children crying and exclaiming and I didn’t need a soothsayer to tell me something bad had just happened, and trust me I wasn’t wrong, a human being went to meet his maker.
A teenage boy died that day, I didn’t get to hear the story from anybody but from what I could decipher from the scenario, I knew what happened already and before I knew it, I was in tears, I started crying with these people.
I haven’t lost a sibling or a close friend so i couldn’t even imagine what these people were going through but I knew they were in pains, I cried like I was related to these people plus the bad news my doctor broke to me just made everything worse.
There I was beating myself and feeling like that was the end of the world, feeling so ungrateful while a young boy just died, a promising young boy just closed his eyes and isn’t going to open it again, a young boy would be placed 6ft, he won’t be able to see his lovely family and friends again. At that moment I couldn’t help but cry more, while I was having my emotional meltdown one lady I met at my doctor’s office was astonished at my outburst and was forced to ask me if I knew the dead boy in question, but did I need to know him before mourning with his family?
I immediately left her, wiped my tears and continued with my journey home, all through the ride home I kept on beating myself of how ungrateful I had been.
It is always an emotional rollercoaster for me whenever I take a trip to the hospital, I always pray for my family, friends and everyone connected to me not to fall sick because truthfully I cannot stand going to the hospital to visit anybody because I am always scared and I have a feeble heart🙈🙈
Another reason why I hate going to the hospital is because of the smell, Lol, I know it’s a building filled with sick people, I always feel like the atmosphere and environment is contaminated. I am a bit of a germaphobe, when I go to the hospital I tend to be careful with what I touch or sit on, so it can be pretty uncomfortable.
I really admire nurses and doctors, like there are the true heroes if you ask me, how do you comfortably see a dead person or a brutally injured person almost everyday without freaking out? Like you see this and you return back to work regardless? I can’t even stand the sight of my own blood how much more other people’s own?
Truthfully the medical profession is only meant for the strong, if you’re a big softie like me and you want to venture into this venture I’d advice you think twice again because you sure don’t want to be a doctor or nurse that freaks out at the sight of blood or a patient dying😂.
So a big shout out to all the doctors, nurses, medical and health practitioner out there who put in their best to save lives.
Loads of Love🥰🥰
XOXO