Today, a few years ago, after a difficult decision, which took me time, work, acceptance and that I finally made with absolute awareness, which took me some time away from my activities, work, everyday life and pushed me to share it as I saw it in other women who helped me take the step.
Because when you start talking about what's happening to you, you realize that there are things that aren't just happening to you and that you're not alone!
After hours of operation and a decision with which I feel happy, calm, and today I know, without a doubt, that it was the best thing I could have done, I even came to question myself why I had done it back then, and there I understood everything (sometimes it's good to take that time to look back to understand some things).
In the annual checks of the woman“ "that I recommend you do year by year without excuses”, I was detected cancer and then a broken prosthesis, yes, if I had the lolas done. I was in a lot of pain, with a lot of discomfort, worry, fear; and there I decided that I would get everything out of me! Enough first is my health and well-being.
What came after was very difficult, a long time with chemo and surgery. I didn't want to have a foreign body in my body anymore, because sooner or later they have to be changed or removed, because I finally understood that my value and self-esteem is not given to me by a pair of rubber bands and because I prioritize my health and well-being above all.
I accepted the REAL reason why so many years ago I made the decision to do it (get breast prosthesis) and until now, after so many years, I see it clearly.
For the most part my self-esteem was passing through there and thanks to a lot of internal work, study and training today I can understand that my value and self-esteem definitely passes, on the other hand, and that there is nothing nicer than ACCEPTING one as one is, a natural beauty and VALUING oneself with our whole BEING, learning along the way everything we have to learn no matter how hard and difficult it seems.
And let's be clear: we are not the lolas (mom), butt, belly (belly), rolls or wrinkles and I can go on... We are much more than that. And if you don't like something, work on it, accept it, accept yourself and move on with more strength.
I understood that my very existence, my laughter and tears; my body, my lyrics and even my work is LOVE. I feel great, without looking at my imperfections, the sagging or the chubby waist and abdomen.
We have a huge burden on our shoulders, just to look perfect and not to be judged.
Nowadays, I'm a perfect one anyway. I never forget it. I don't have the label that others put on me; if not, the one that I want to have.
Furthermore, I continue to cultivate my affections and live intensely, filling my life memories with a lot of joy!. If there is one thing, it is that we cannot leave our health behind, thank God that allows me to continue moving forward and appreciating every moment of my life more.
To honor my femininity, today I am a full woman whose natural beauty does not have to be related to body appearance standards.
Rather, as much as possible I try to express genuine affection for my body and everything it does for me, from the inside out to express the best version of my daily life and be happy in my own skin.
Gratitude is a way of showing health. Now yes, I am a renewed woman, I work out every day and with more energy than ever!
Janitze.
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