“So, that's about it, you're starting from 0 again now.”
The project I had been doing for the past 4 months came to its end. That could only mean one thing, I need to go back hustling and working hard.
I talked a lot about reset for quite many years until only these past few months I felt what reset truly was like. And this journey is another chapter in my book.
For someone who used to have certain conveniences to not having any, I am being reminded one more time that to live, it is not that expensive. However, what is expensive is our ego which then manifests into a lifestyle.
We forget that all that matters in life can be quite simple. As long as we have a comfortable bed, the ability to eat, some form of connection, we can be content.
Many of us, myself included, live in a world with dozens of options. We live in a place where there's a cafe on every corner, shopping malls right across the block, conveniences 24//7 that makes us think we constantly need more.
During my time in Papua, I learned that I wasn't actually snobbish about my coffee. I can drink anything as long as it has a higher content of caffeine and sugar to support my work. All this because there weren't that many boutique coffee shops in Jayapura. So, my options were limited and I was fine with having an occasional Starbucks trip or some boutique cafe once in a while. Unlike at home or any megapolitan cities, coffee shops are a daily trip, in fact a 24/7 ordeal sometimes. My coffee expenses used to be worth half of my own income, which can be considered a bad addiction so now I set up a good budget for this addiction.
Long story short, since then many things have changed in my life, including the way I see myself and the world around me. I am being reminded once again, of a younger version of myself, hungry for success and wasn't quite picky about things. She simply uses what she was given and leverages it.
My other aspect in life is being reset to 0 as well, finance, career, relationship (family and friendship) included, as well as my faith too. It wasn't just the simple reset, it was the reset that threw everything off balance and eventually the kind of event that made Thanos snap its finger.
I even carried out an aura, “ she's starting out in life again”, that made some supportive family and friends tell me, “ we're excited that you're coming back to life”.
For quite many years, I had that blockage. By that I mean, I kept talking about reset, wanting to have that reset only those that were performative. These days, it is no longer performative. This is the reset I wanted – The Great Reset.
I've finally let go of guilt, shame, pride, and my ego. My mind is at its calmness level like I've never been before & I am more than content and excited to see how my life will turn out in the next 10 years. In hindsight, saying yes to be sent to Papua, wasn't such a bad deal. It was the respawn moment in my life.
Hope you guys are doing well.
𝘊𝘦𝘮𝘺 (𝘰𝘳 𝘔𝘢𝘤) 𝘪𝘴 𝘢 𝖼𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗏𝖾 𝗀𝖾𝗇𝖾𝗋𝖺𝗅𝗂𝗌𝗍 & 𝘤𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘰𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘶𝘳, 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘮𝘣𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘣𝘢𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘰𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘥𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘰𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘬. 𝘏𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘨 𝘳𝘦𝘧𝘭𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘭𝘶𝘴𝘵, 𝘤𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘺, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘵𝘩. 𝘠𝘰𝘶’𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘣𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘴, 𝘵𝘦𝘤𝘩𝘯𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘺, 𝘱𝘰𝘱 𝘤𝘶𝘭𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦, 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘭, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭 𝘱𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘰𝘱𝘩𝘺; 𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘩𝘦’𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘶𝘱𝘴 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘪𝘯 𝘤𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘦. 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘴𝘸𝘪𝘮𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘤𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦𝘴. 𝘍𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘯 𝘏𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘣 𝘢 𝘤𝘶𝘱 𝘰𝘧 𝘤𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘴. |