There comes a time in everyone's life when you realize the world is not as we want it to be, it just is. Nothing is guaranteed, nothing except for death.

You are sharing your frustrations, that is fine, most people on here have similar stories to share. That said, I think Hive made a mistake when it advertised itself as a "place to make money"

Its a place where its really easy to make a little bit of money, but its very hard to make a lot of it. In that sense its not much different than real life. I can ask someone for 25 cents to buy some gum, thats likely to happen, but not 100 bucks to buy a new phone.

And, with all that said. Truly creative people create for the sake of creating. Its an internal desire to output art in all its forms out into the world, and escape from death, I submit.

If you can only find the will to create if you get paid, then maybe art is not your thing after all, and I do mean that sincerely and with respect. I can't imagine a relevant artist who refused to get on stage o stroke a canvas unless they paid him/her. Sounds silly in my view.