I got a sister, with whom I often dive into deep conversations, our problems, about our life, our ambitions, our goals, etc. You can say, we are good friends who fulfill one another. So while chit-chatting today, she asked me a question, something like, " What are the things that you never had and you won't be able to have that anymore too, no matter how hard you try about that." Well, that was a pretty easy question for me to answer, for you too?
I replied to her that the love of my Grandparents, yeah I never had that properly. There was a very little portion that had been fulfilled by my grandmother even when I was very little, so you know, I can't remember any of that love properly. Since my childhood, I have had a lot of regrets while seeing others. So that's the thing that I never had properly, not even to mention as I lost them before my age to understand their love and I won't be getting them back, right?
Okay, this question was done. Deep yet it was pretty easy to answer, but she is wicked. She asked me a few more questions too, while answering them, I got stuck into some dumped memories, some things that I didn't want to recall, but you know, sometimes a sparkling is needed to set a massive fire. She fell asleep after setting the fire at midnight in my mind. And all I could do is vent out some anger on her inbox that she might encounter in the morning and now having a chilling sleep.
I always avoid playing games like "Truth And Dare" at gatherings or with anyone because no matter how funny those games start, they end up with some very serious questions or heavy tasks. The same thing happens with these deep conversations with her, this witch would come, clear her head and leave me hanging.
Ah shit!
Sometimes things from the past would knock on our door. Now it's up to us what to do, some may do some heavy maths with their emotions to find out a suitable answer of where they would see something good worth of giving a second chance to be happy again. And some people like me, who are idle enough to cut off those maths and move on without having any complex probability maths, just take quick actions like I am taking against the odd thoughts roaming around my head.
5.00 AM, when it was clicked.
Standing straight to light its surroundings, soon which will be replaced by the daylight too.
It is 4.00 AM now,
That same old bad habit caught me once again. No problem, the next round will be mine. Good Night.