She only got close to my lips but she didn't kiss me.
PixabayShe got very close to me, held my shirt and whispered into my ear, make me feel like a woman.
Oh! My Heart, what have I gotten myself into, why did I even accept to bring her home.
This should not be happening.
I have vowed within myself to continue being me no matter how hard she tried.
SEMANTA why are you doing this, I asked her, she said she wants the whole of me, she is breathless without me, she has never felt like this before.
PixabayJohn let me tell you this, there is something about you that drives me crazy, haba don't get mad at my place , I told her.
Hold on, sit on the couch and let's talk, I begged of her.
John do you know how i feel? She asked, I told her I know but I can't help you at that point.
If I have ever been too serious in my entire life, if I have ever had that particular moment to say 'NO' to an offer and also stick to that' NO', it was that very moment.
My Heart was bleeding fast but I had to stick to my principles.
Now do not think I am not human, I am, I got self control and I was respecting who I was.
SEMANTA you should not be doing this, I told her.
Let me be sincere to you, from the onset, I am not the kind of a guy you thought I was.
PixabayI am very sorry I have to disappoint you, please put on your top, it's almost 9pm and I will not want anything to happen to you on your way.
She left my arms and went to sit close to my television. I listened to her talk to herself.
I over heard her say, I was thinking he was going to drive me crazy, I just wasted my time on this one. I promise myself, when I leave, I will never pray to cross paths with him.
While she was still talking to herself, I stood up from where I was sitting, walk to where she was and tapped her from behind, I am sorry if I am rude, I am sorry if I disappoint you, believe me, I am doing this for you. I don't want to hurt you because I know I do not love you or maybe I do not have what it takes to love you, please forgive me.
I am not sure that man for you, quest for a man that will love you wholeheartedly, there is a sure man for you out there but you just need to put yourself together, go back home, there is something about you that you need to know, you are yet to understand who you are, please go back home and discover who you are.
She stood up, wore her high heel and said good bye, I immediately rushed to help her open the door.
Goodbye was the only thing I could say at that moment.
Please do not get me wrong, I did not treat her bad, I was just doing the needful, I was just helping her.
I did not want to plug in her socket, I didn't want to be counted as "YOU ARE JUST LIKE EVERY OTHER GUY "
whatever decision I took, I did it for her.
This is the real me and I was just respecting who I was.
I wanted more from her, I didn't want sex from her, if I had wanted sex, I will sure would have gotten it but I wanted more.
I wanted someone who is real too, I wanted someone who was ready to bring out the best in me, I wanted someone who was ready to look into my eyes and say, thank you for helping me discover who I am and how powerful I can be.
PixabayThis is just the only thing I was fighting for, I just wish SEMANTA understood with me.
I just wish she understood that I wanted more than sex.
Please do not think I am not man enough, do not say I have missed that opportunity to have smashed such an angel, I know if it was to be you, you would have sunk your junior in her socket but truth is, you are not me, I wanted more.
PixabayWhen SEMANTA left, I didn't feel it, I just knew I did the right thing. Before she left, she promised never to call me or have anything to do with her.
Months and years have passed, I forgot about everything and I moved on.
There was this day, I was traveling to Philippines, Cebu City precisely to meet up with a seminar I was invited by my business friend.
On getting to the airport and as I was about checking in, GUESS WHO I MET? If you are thinking it is SEMANTA, you might be right and you might be wrong but you are entitled to whatever you guess.
Why don't you hold on, don't be in a hurry to conclude.
Pixabayfor those of you who did not read the part two, here is the link to read, so you can follow up with the story.
https://steemit.com/love/@mritsnobigdeal/semanta-the-girl-who-was-deeply-into-me-df9b22934f3d8
COMMERCIAL BREAK, I WILL BE BACK.
ENJOY YOUR DAY.