Before, I have no self confident and self esteem. I thought I was the bitter and beast person on earth. I didn't appreciated what the beauty given to me. Then, when I was getting older and found myself that I have hidden treasure that I should be proud of.
Well, I accepted the fact that I am visited by depression and anxiety but I trust God and have faith to conquer this feeling. So, sometimes, I played my phone, blogging and making many angle of my selfie inside and outside the house of my boss.I am nature lover so I tried to photograph what I thought a better getaway of pain and hurt burden inside my heart. Do not underestate us who have this kind of feeling. Who wants to have this feeling? No one to be sad but I could not resist the feeling. Imam just too happy that there are people who inspired me to go on and leave, forget the shadow of my yesterday.
I went to the doctor to have my monthly check up. Honestly, I am not sick. I am taking care of myself but overthinki g dragged me out caused my mild hypertension. I don't want to be sad. Crying caused myself down and yes, crying is better than keeping it inside. But crying everyday is too bad to my health.
One of the doctors, I found a young man like my son. He told me how he fight anxiety and depression. He is a Doctor now and yet, he feels the same what I feel too but it is all beyond control. Prayers could be a big factor to overcome this feeling.
So here my selfie after I got my medicine. The morning was not so hot , it's cloudy and humid so I removed my face cover while walking. I felt like I was suffocated and could not breath.
I tried to look happy but I can't deny my feelings.
Looking to a distance.
Sitting down on the bench and I saw myself in the fiber glass wall.
In this way, I fought the hardest feeling inside. Thank you for being here with me all the time. Sorry for the drama but again please don't judge us, we need your attention and support so no one would be drown to a bad move.