Congratulations on having your home! That is already a huge thing that not many have (or will ever) accomplish (unfortunately)... As we got our first (our OWN) home last year, I can completely relate to you about "making it a dream home"... It is a process, and it could happen or not, but the most important step is behind us... We do have HOME!

To "de-stress" myself from rushing up the dream home thing, I'm giving myself a chance to change the home if I don't like it... Maybe this home isn't destined to be my "dream home", maybe it's just the part of the journey to the right one... But, it IS A PART of it, and that's a big WIN!

I saw yesterday a banner that said: "It's OK to not be OK"... which could line up with your post and transform into "It's OK to be out of balance, as you can have a reason to work to get back into it" 😃

Send greetings to your mom! I hope she will get well soon!