As a mom getting alone time is something I call luxury. I do try to manage time for self-care but always have to talk or involve in something other things at the same time. So getting out for a walk, alone, became an occasional event!
I was looking for a jewelry repair shop the other day. It was not on Google so I have to search for it. I asked some bystanders, they couldn't help. Then I decided to walk.
The afternoon sun felt so comfortable, also the streets were almost empty. I totally loved it.
And I was thinking about some random stuff about life!
One thing made me feel uncomfortable. After becoming a stay home mom, leaving my job for almost 5 years now; I feel insecure on the street. There was a time when I used to hang out a lot, be on the roadside tea stalls, and do random fun stuff with friends. Also, to go to the office, I used to take the local bus/transport. I was so accompanied by the crowd, the daily hustle. But now life became so different and these made me like this.
Now everything bothers me, I feel scared after the sunset, I don't feel comfortable on the street anymore. And all this makes me feel a little wired and worried. Because I know, I can't leave this city anytime soon. So having these feelings will never be helpful.
While having those random thoughts, one quote came to my mind-
“No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path.”
That 'no one may' part made me realize, gave me some flashbacks, some faces came in front of my mind. It's true, even if someone can walk with us, they may not. I also may not. We all have different paths and choices in life. And that's okay.
Not everyone comes to our life to stay forever, no?
So it's okay to take the walk alone.
There's a popular song in Bangla-
"যদি তোর ডাক শুনে কেউ না আসে
তবে একলা চলো রে"
My dad used to say to us so many times. He is always encouraged to walk alone if no one agrees.
It's okay to walk alone. Take pride by making your own path.
