Putting myself together to take any action is tough for me. And when it comes to taking a new initiative or some changes; I get really scared. I usually show a very strong personality but deep inside I know how fearful I feel. It takes a lot of time and effort to get up and take any action.
Let me give you an example of how I feel even if it's a silly issue.
I admitted my son to school this year. On the first day of his school, I was more nervous than him. I was not sure how would I face all the unknown faces of the teachers, guardians; what persona I would reflect, how I would go smoothingly with everything.
It may sound very silly because these are things that would perfectly go with the person who is enrolled in school, not the parent. But look, how much time and effort I needed to cope and go smoothly!
It's just a daily life example. When it comes to something big my fear, anxiousness, stress everything doubled the amount, as you can guess.
So if you ask me 'what drives me' I have to say, there are many things.
The first thing is reminding myself of the long-term vision, why I started at the very first. I continuously counsel myself that if I don't take action, things would be the same. I try to figure out what would help me more, what can I do not just what others think and say.
As a very introverted person, I usually don't feel comfortable sharing what's going on inside my head; not my problems, not what I'm going through. So I feel come comfortable without taking advice but depending on my instinct. And I would say, I have a good instinct that helps me to take the right path.
Another thing is my observation and evaluation power. Maybe it's because I'm introverted and like to observe. So I usually do my research, evaluate all the consequences before taking any action. It's tough, makes me really stressed to continuously look around on my own. But it's comforting because I know myself well than anyone else.
What I found from my experience is, there's nothing more difficult than pushing myself forward. My mind always says to settle and to cope with things rather than take action for any change. It's better for anyone.
But I came to realize if I take this option I have to compromise with so many things; from my life choices to my financial freedom.
Reminding myself about my goals/vision, incorporating a very positive mentality, practicing mindfulness, letting go of my fears, embracing who I'm, and continuously giving myself the room to face challenges is much more helpful than anything else.
I wouldn't claim I'm an achiever from others' points of view. But for me, all these helped me push forward, take the right path and be in the process of reaching the point I was looking for.
