The week has been tough on me again. I spent the rest seven days doing nothing but to read, lay down, and doing none (none of my school works).
Indeed, it is true that the adolescence stage is the gateway to new emotions. And oftentimes everything gets too overwhelming to feel and to carry these new sets.
I always thought that these times are the moments were some got lost, (and I am very close to those 'some'.)
I felt before like I am in a circus yet I am as well the circus. A circus where I can feel every different emotions, and the circus where I feel like everything is all a play and a gamble—moreover, the unfortunate thing is that I always lose.
But could a sunflower grow on a circus? Yes, if you'd choose it to grow.
The good thing about life is that as it has its bad side, it has is its good side either. I will admit that it is very hard to be optimistic in times of your dark phase. It so hard to keep going when you feel like the weight of the world in your shoulder. But... when you get again the rhythm to dance, or the golden thread to follow, or the air to breathe—you can eventually one at a time and step-by-step walk, run, swim, dance with life.
Truly, positivity is so hard to achieve but once achieve is so great to have.
I made these days ago with the result of my mental breakdowns when I realized I cannot just pause my life and end it without even trying to be happy and trying to fight and make a way to end my mess.
I am a sunflower in my circus. I will find always the sun.
Made these with Art Rangers Gouache because sadly I cannot afford to buy an Acrylic paint these times. (I made sure to dry it thoroughly and to wear it only when it's sunny)
Sunflower on my boring white shoes:
An aspirant writer and artist. To be found is my greatest dream and never be lost. Hi, I am 
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