Taking it easy really hasn't been an option lately, not only does my routine go against it, but I can also feel my body begging for a bit of relaxation. Yet, when I actually manage a bit of time to take it easy, my body and brain just fails to make use of that opportunity. My mind wanders off somewhere, and decides to invite some unwanted and useless memories from the past, or it just starts to worry about the near future.
The day starts with a bit of office work, quantity differs from day to day. Showing my face at the office isn't always necessary, but sometimes we have to pay a visit just to collect some files and info. Since business is down, even meetings aren't as common nowadays.
After getting back home in the evening, or if I'm already home, I'll probably read a book and sip on some coffee or tea. Then it's time to really hop into Hive/PeakD, browse and interact a bit, work on my own posts maybe. If I'm in the mood, then I'll probably edit a few gameplay footage of mine or watch some "educational" videos. After that if I have the energy, and if the mates are on, then I'll probably grind a little, play a bit of COD Multiplayer or Warzone with the boys.
Instead of relying on sleep and our lousy old sleep cycle, the human body should've been equipped with a shut down button instead, or some type of a charging system, something that's actually efficient. Because all of this "the body needs quality sleep" hasn't been working for me that well.
Even if I try to get some shut eye, it takes an hour or two AT LEAST for the eyelids to actually agree on meeting, so that I can finally get some sleep. Then there's that faulty little pattern of sleep. Waking up all of a sudden in the middle of the night for no reason, at least twice, and then starts the never-ending wait, for them to close once again.
The amount of work I have to deal with isn't going to decrease any time soon, that has to go on. But even when I get the time for some proper sleep, me and my body just doesn't seem to capable anymore, not at the moment at least.
The lack of a proper recharge session is just messing with my mind and body right now. No matter what I do, try to sleep a bit early, set the AC to a "perfect" temperature, cut out the regular tea and coffee breaks even, my diet is already well balanced, yet nothing works.
The past month has broken all the records of GARBAGE sleep quality in my own sleep history book, the consistency is beyond compare. When it comes to resting and getting a proper amount and quality of sleep, it is absolutely nowhere to be found. I feel like if this goes on, then something inside of me will stop working all of a sudden.
“Burnout is what happens when you try to avoid being human for too long.” — Michael Gungor