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i has a catHUB but i overflowed with so much vitriol today and its deardiary day anyway, i still dont get it, people post pictures of their scrambled eggs this mornings breakfast
i empty my mind without polishing it ... , so ??!?
the beauty of it ? barring a total split among witnessess and a complete second steemit blockchain, this will be locked in the original one (or the one that wants to keep the data as promised from the start) for as long as its running, an image of THIS day, exactly how it REALLY was, regardles other peoples tales, gossip and even my own 'coloured' memories
09:40 ...
as i gain consciousness and realize where i am, my internal clock tells me something's off.
this is not 9am
it didnt do it ??!? it must be trying to lure me into doing something . Go downstairs check the hour : 09:40, indeed
it has a masterplan again today, the only possibility why it wouldnt.
i pick up my phone, not 5 seconds after i get a messenger notification ... look out the window to the neighbours windows
PLUS
the sun is up and out, its hot, blazing daylight, nowhere to hide from the day
so i sit
and i wait
11:45 ...
two hours of my life gone by, paralyzed by daylight, stuck behind enemy lines.
cleaning up front is so pointless, what i do today i have to re-do tomorrow. It's such a waste of time in a place where i already only have a two hour window every 24 hours to MAYBE do something
paralyzed
braindead ... payments made ... i wonder if anyone thinks every time i dont do it on the hour that im gonna take the 40 cents and run ?
how would that be for my rep ... my rep in THIS place ? what would that get me but a lot of lost time, zero more money and the same amount of gossip anyway
moving section X since im gonna do my research now
12:16 ...
same old routine ... threats, nazi indoctrine, tries, get out, move, get up, threats, FEAR! , i dont fear, it triggers anger, thats just how the crud went bad
i'm a household hazard ... by the time i come upstairs to this keyboard thinking "I CAN MANAGE THAT PRINTF NOW" ... as 
so by the time i get upstairs to the keyboard and i fixed it ... which will need a function for re-usability but is a patch for now, but since the composemainbody.inc basically works for all three vault/distro accounts, it already has infinite use, the only this is the layout streamed to it ... like i said, perl and linux shell script is pretty like e=mc² ... by the time i do that my cat comes in , at the sound of the meo i hear i left the vacuum cleaner on down stairs and the water running in the bathroom, which i didnt notice
until now ... not the first time i run downstairs because i smell something burning and my veggies are ultra-crisp, so i dont cook a lot now, too much fucking braindead focusbreakers
this is "deardiary" , not "how i got rich while sleeping" ... no one is forced to read it but id rather be real than shiney, so since there's nothing shiney about life right now, THIS
is real , this is MY reality
13:05 ...
"he stopped shouting..."
did he ? they just told me
smile in my face
yap behind my back, rat fucking inbreed shit , yes well ofcourse, i have explained this many times before, under situations of prolongued extreme stress i get a-pathic, i dont get pushed into "doing shit because theres no more time" that NEVER works for me, i get paranoid , i probably imagine things like ... getting messages right after i pick up my phone and yokels in cahoots reporting behind my back. Its just gossip and slander , very likely nothing more
i dont think i have much to say thats any good today so i'll cut the diary here ... but THIS is MY reality ... try to get some cleaning done, garden will have to wait until im up at my hours all night, make sure i get to bed on time and refuse to get out before its MY time
and that's it, enjoy your FUCKING thursday
14:44 ...
yea i better stop talking til tomorrow , it's not handhake day , handshake is NEVER again here, last time was beyond way too times way too much
cops are useless, yokels smile in your face, yap behind your back
there will be no dating as long as i'm stuck in belgium
i do not trust one living soul here but my cat anymore
so ENJOY YOUR FUCKING THURSDAY, dont push me to test me you always get the wrong result siren boy, lots of noise, useless at ten times the price of an unemployed fucker, legalist armed mafia , packrat gangs in vans ... i see the similarity
leave me the fuck alone ... i got plenty of people to talk to, i dont need any in belgium , nothing, EVER , as long as im not out of here
and blablablablabla, gonna finish my distro mainbody generator changes before 4 pm , get to bed, stay in til midnight and FUCK THIS PLACE
ohw, the next indoctrinated trigger and the next and the NEXT, well, if im gonna die of future cancer, then i certainly wont die of future cancer HERE , if i get enough then my parents are still family, despite what happened so i wont let the rot if there's shortage, but i cant do that HERE if i dont have enough either so there's only ONE OPTION, I LEAVE BELGIUM ... mongolia is PERFECT, population density, dispersion on all levels and sections, religious division, geographically, i have done my homework LONG before i decided, mister shrink-SAN, and like doc-san, i dont really like not being taken serious because i seriously don't act like a stereotype
AT ALL
het leven zoals het is, hickville, van drukkerland, #fuckflanders
c'mon dude, don't gimme that crud, you sound like merkel or the americans ... its not THAT far from Russia is it ?
unless you can find me a spot on mars, its the least populated, less troubled area with vast preserved nature, mate ... nothings gonna ever beat that (its asian too btw, you know my 'thing')
its 2018, even if i win the lottery it will be 2019 by the time i get there, there's skype, and line and wechat ... i dont see any of your points
none
i can do whatever the fuck i deem good for the planet from a place where its still worth it, MUCH BETTER, yes that spells "planet" , not "humanity" and i can do local projects as much as anyone will let me ...
when i get there
until then
nothing you're not worth it, after all you did ... i shouldnt even be considering humans in my future , if YOU can not feel the #borderlessnation is a necessity , to achieve ANYTHING in time then we will not see eye to eye anyway, i need my ivory tower ... or at least a mobile home or an abandoned warehouse twenty km out of ulanbaatar heh, i always needed that, i realized it so many years before you stuck me here, i still need it, its what i need, i dont have a crystal ball but i cant settle for less, death comes to us all anyway. Non debatable, its not a discussion, its what you kept from me by putting me here in hell
see what happens when you treat me like some "push-to-talk" device ?
only crud comes out, repeating , repeating, repeating , repeating, over and over ... the same old shit, if you push it
i almost feel like thanking
well
16:00 ....
at least most of the nightly is ready by 4 pm, steady rythm , one that only works if its mine
23:15 ...
its already almost dark ... there's hope i can make it through another year in hell, there's none that i will ever get that year back
i should do section x here
section X moved here
fuck IT, THIS , THAT , THEM , and in some cases YOU :)
lets see what would i want ?
gentse feesten ? price per day for just the train ticket ? no need looking on saturday or sunday since THERE ARE NO TRAINS IN DRUKKERLAND ON WEEKENDS (try coming home from the movies on a friday night ... get stuck having to walk 10km or more from the nearest station) 26 kilometers ... 1:30 hours on a train, at €12.80 (if i return before midnight) ... no drinks or snacks had, no entry tickets bought ... fun level : medium to high, cost ... doable if i dont do anything that costs money , threat-level : squatcity : civilians : green / cops : green
need a new joypad ... steam controller ? price ? standard xbox ? price ? .... speedlink XEOX ... about €35 delivery included, no batteries needed, builtin lithium up to 10 hours wireless play, usb chargeable ... / steam controller at €54.99 , built for keyboard compatibility but so is any other with game companion or that other thing at €4.99 (what was that again?) pinnacle game profiler, right !!! i once asked the dude to let me pay him by wire or crypto or paypal or sofort or about anything i could do except visa and they simply said like "o but we dont provide that, is that sales ? i should send Grant Cardone over to bitchslap them, nonetheless its the most polished option)
extortion city metalfest ... i think i almost got lured into it, i cant afford it anyway, spent 3/4 of a months money on one day, snickers dopamine motivation will not get me "in the mood", its way too late for that. WOOOW ... hatebreed, suicidal, die antwoord, 3 different days ... that's already 90% unlikely then , ticket price ? €35 to €55 ... night bus (means they drive you to a city station, not to where you live, and if youre LUCKY you can still get a train there at aforementioned €12.80 i suppose) middle of summer, drinks not included ... thats at least €150 for one day, FOR ONE ACT on ONE DAY ... unless i fall with my nose on some money the day up front ?
thats not gonna happen then thats settled. Threat level ? well if it takes only one b*tch to point one finger in soviet hellgium to get me down for the night, i lost all the money i gave to the ticket AND for the bus, PLUS 100 for the sleepover PLUS 100 FOR CLEANING THE CELL (means : nothing i folded my own sheet and didnt move all the time i was there) so i, let's not ... i'll look for something else if i got a 50 to spare
who the hell has that kind of fukkin money to spare in 2018 hellgium ? thats like 10% of a shiftworkers wage
vandrukkerland kermis ? did you say "vandrukkerland kermis?" ... ahem ... you must be joking, id go for smoutebollen but i can get those in squatcity too ... id be a fool to spend a cent here
so ... the rest of the summer ? you KNOW what i want, i want quiet so i can get something done, during MY HOURS, i want OUT OF HERE with my cat before its too late so
unless you got an instant $10k or better all the money i couldnt make since the day you stuck me back here ... there's nothing to talk about
i hate this fucking place, in daylight tennex
01:03 ...
its like 25 degrees in here or something, there's mosquitos everywhere since the light is on and the windows are open, the distroposts are waiting for one click on the post button since 23:30 ... and this one is probably plenty done, just needs to click generate on deardiary.sh0, well then ... maybe i find some nice gfxes while waiting for 2am to happen (midnight UCT) equals posting time ... yup well , organized mechanics are part of it ...
maybe even find the braincell to do a line or two (of code, precious, pro-gram-ming .... see, the references are everywhere, like the number 23)
NOTHING is sacred, YOU have the right to question
everything
people who are receiving daily votes thanks to yours truly
shares will be given from different accounts now as i try to balance it between my vault-alts ... who double as distros or they would just be sitting there ofcourse, but always taken from 
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find #steembasicincome at
, they will reply on the feed but better on the discord
not sure if all those are still correct, i'll check it some time, but im sure you can find their feed if need be ... the rules ? blablabla, first of all i give away what i give away so i dont think there's anything to debate but first goes random from the top voters at the moment of 10X, if all top voters have had one within one month then it goes random from then 1000+ followers, MIND YOU : ONLY NON STALE ACCOUNTS, NON BOT ACCOUNTS AND NO ACCOUNTS THAT ONLY RE-STEEM or it would be a waste, so yea, there's two people who have two, they happen to be top-voters on my account, why would that be unfair ? and even if it is ... you're free to refuse a share if you get one, i dont get paid to diplomat
i have a small idea on how to give to people who already received a share if they come up but i have to test that first
(image from https://www.innovationtoronto.com/ )
i will ofcourse check the account before i send, if it's a 'stale' account then putting sbi bots on it to vote is 100% pointless
i think we can all agree on that ?
there we are, see you at 320 (im not sure i'm keepin track here i send the sbi way before because i keep the messages for content, open book, hyperthread, THINK MORE, work less unless its for yourself, symbiosis is the key to nature)
i know its caligula, dude, but how does that rhyme with cat?
thanks for your patience
and kind consideration
owh .. by the way ->
i do not ask for anything in return nor will i refuse anything that doesn't come with strings attached, if anyone for any reason doesn't want their share , they can always give it back, it's all in the faq, since this is the internet i assume you know what that is, and where to find it
it's easy to be magnanimous and enlightened when you're pockets are ALREADY FAT
last but not least :
/n/n07/06/2018 01:36:13 am/n/non the heels of google ... well .. the more counterweights of that weight the better this is like the need to keep linux development DE-CENTRALIZED, isnt it ?/n/nhttps://www.linuxfoundation.org/blog/internet-giant-tencent-linux-foundation-open-source/ /n/n
/n/n07/06/2018 01:34:41 am/n/n
Col. Corazon Santiago, "A Tactical History of Sparta" (Would have accompanied discovery of the deleted "Inertial Damping" tech) Air power rests at the apex of the first triad of victory, for it combines Mobility, Flexibility, and Initiative.) Spartan Battle Manual (Accompanies discovery of the "Doctrine: Air Power" tech)
so yea, at the new apex lies extra-atmospheric domination, whatchu gonna do if you can't even launch a plane without the enemy seeing it ?
or are we past that enemy-thing ?
ah yes, i should replace the newline characters with break tags for the second page render for steemit, that i should .../n/nhttps://science.slashdot.org/story/18/06/30/0512258/the-quest-to-find-nuclear-fuel-on-the-moon
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/n/n07/06/2018 01:17:28 am/n/nwell, does it ? (what do you say if you cant say simply he or she in pc-world ? which used to be personal computer)/n/nhttps://www.battleforthenet.com/scoreboard/
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/n/n07/06/2018 12:50:08 am/n/nKepler 186f is only 557 years away at the speed of light so ... stick me in that accelerator
call me a particle
and shoot me there
just a few 100 years of stemcell shots to keep regenerating in my spacesuit and i'm set, right ?
that's why this place is HELL, even with lightspeed travel, you need generations to get anywhere on a maybe, as the bible said "kicked down, never to return to the heavens again, right ?"
these are the fields of the nephilim, the backyard ... no the dust shelf of the trailer in the backyard of the last house in the galaxy ... so far away its simply unlikely to ever see alien life here, THAT is mainly the problem there, isnt it ?/n/nhttps://www.futurity.org/exoplanets-spin-dynamics-seasons-1798452-2/
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/n/n07/06/2018 12:20:39 am/n/nlol Games like the Sims, Angry Birds, and Candy Crush sure, you could stream The Sims.
yea that certainly but i dont think they want the hardcore gamers, although they fork out a LOT of cash , the casuals fork out a lot combined in microtransactions, without noticing because "its just the phonebill"...
i recently bought a steam link in a sale for 1 ... i mean one euro, right ... i dont needed one, but they sent me one for one euro so that was like, well ... one of those gabe newell things, i think it was too long since i paid tribute and i think he gets itchy and there's a red light flashing in his dungeon like "theres an account that hasnt spent in over a month !!!" or something ...
but : the point : i dont need one, but i set it up to stream to the tv downstairs in the living room (over LAN, not wi-fi , for obvious reasons, streaming mostly dark souls 3 at full hd , im not rich enough to have 4k ) and euhm
there was LAG ... on my whatever 1000bitsbits lan, there was lag, the resolution sometimes got blurry ... and thats IN-house streaming, it didnt happen much
but it happened nonetheless, now at 1 for a permanent device , i mean permanently owned, i'm not complaining there, its not the newest pc but frankly i think it should handle streaming just one game on a windows system with about all metro and crud disabled from running in the background, but it doesnt, not 100% of the time (which in dark souls is ofcourse, plenty of instant death , doom and despair)
so we have two issues : dark souls is not angry birds, as you stated , 
but THREE, the bane of all things post 2000 : DRM ... a streaming service means you own nothing, they stop it, you lose it, i can make a backup of my steam games if i like, get a patch to play it offline, i'll still have it, even if valve shuts down for a reason but with a service like that ?
you don't own shyte, right ? they decide when its time for you to stop playing
SO ... i will classify this with "the google wave" (does anyone still remember the google wave ? it was going to make language barriers non-existent ? im not sure if its allowed to mention the name but i dont work for google , so ...)
i wouldnt pay a cent for that, but i sold my last xbox a long time ago too, and they have tekken on pc now, and soon soulcalibur i here ... i see no reason for consoles to exist, i wouldnt "rent" a movie from my isp either since buying the dvd costs justs as much, so i doubt i would pay for this
but the common casual crud might (is that disrespectful again ? i didnt say plebs this time ...tsk...)/n/nhttps://hardware.slashdot.org/story/18/06/29/074253/google-is-planning-a-game-platform-that-could-take-on-xbox-and-playstation
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