Hello friends
I'm thankful to God for the opportunity of seeing another new week in good condition with y'all in the community. I feel very much blessed already by accepting the fact that not everything in life will move perfectly as I would expect them to be and lately I have been getting huge relief from that thought which I've build up in my mind
Despite being satisfied with what God has given me and where he had positioned me, I've got some few things I still wish I could really change about myself and give a total new face to that aspect of my life or personality which I will further on share with you all. I really think I'm having issues with managine my emotional and mind control, I have taken good observation as at how I manage my mind control and I won't say I'm disappointed with the result I have accumulated so far, but I feel I really have some little shortcomings in that aspect which I wish I can change, because at some point I really find it hard to concentrate and engage in some of my normal activities normally.
My emotions as well is one thing I've been facing challenges with, the way I manage my emotions sometimes is not satisfying to me, I have discovered I am a very emotional person and I easily escalate to emotional trauma whenever I'm having an unbalanced feeling that seem not to sit right with my emotions which is also affecting me really bad sometimes, my focus, confidence, punctuality and most of other things that connects to my personality are sometimes getting affecting by this situation and I really wish I could cause a huge change in that aspect of myself.
I was having a conversation with a new friend and the person was complaining about my mood of response which at my side I was thinking everything is cool with the way I was responding to the conversation, my fear of emotional trauma as gotten to a stage where it is already affecting the way I relate and interact with people around me, I really wish for change and also the courage to be able to step out from fear so that I can be able to live a normal life again, because the new friend was complaining saying that I'm only forcing my response and trying to bring energy that will end the conversation, which make it look like I'm only trying to fake my likeness for whatever is going on right there. I believe this mind and emotional control issues is the couse leading to all of that. If the person never said anything I wouldn’t have even known I wasn't complying which is not my intention to give such type of energy.
I believe this is a situation that could gradually change to my favour probably throw growth or certain experience with time but I really wish I could take fully charge over all of those things I have mentioned. I'm grateful to have the privilege of being among you all and to have the opportunity of sharing. Stay blessed everyone and I wish you all a wonderful week🙏 ✨️ ❤️
