I saw the Inleo prompt from a few days back and I couldn’t help but write on it as it is one topic I can relate to.
The prompt reflects on the disappearance of someone significant in our lives, a topic that brings back memories I thought I had buried long ago.
The psychological impact of someone vanishing without a word can be overwhelming, often filled with questions that spark uncertainty and anxiety.
When someone abruptly leaves without any form of explanation or whatsoever the effects can be profound. Sometimes this leads to confusion and a deep sense of insecurity, questioning your worth and wondering what could have possibly gone wrong. This could happen with a close friend, a beloved family member, or a partner. In my case, it was my college love.
Have you ever experienced a departure that left you feeling empty, as if your entire world had shattered? The loneliness and heartache can be so intense that it threatens your sanity. They say love is beautiful, but I believe love is truly beautiful when shared with the right person, that is someone who values you and knows your worth. Allow me to share my story, and I promise it won't bore you.
During my school days, I encountered someone I thought brought light into my life hehehehehe, my young self, this was back in 2014, a time when I was naive and felt I knew what love truly meant, but I was wrong Everything seemed perfect until my final year when, out of nowhere, he disappeared without any warning. I searched my heart for any signs of what I must have done wrong, I questioned myself nonstop but I found nothing, nothing to explicitly describe what I did that led to his his disappearance.
I accepted it as my fate, thinking that perhaps he just wasn't meant for me. Yet, my heart was shattered by his disappearance. Part of me was worried about him, while another part was consumed with questions about his sudden exit and why he chose to leave without explanation. To ease my worries, I reached out to his family, who assured me that he was safe.
Years later, I received an unexpected phone call from a number I didn’t recognize. Curiosity made me answer, and to my amazement, it was HIM, the one who had vanished years earlier. I was taken aback, and the first word that slipped from my lips was "Why?" He provided reasons for his actions, but to me, they felt flimsy and inadequate for someone you claimed to love then. I realized then that I had spent all those years blaming myself for something I hadn't done. I forgave myself for the self-doubt and assured him that I wished him well. It was time for me to move on with my life and ohh yes I did move on and I am in a better place now😃
Right now looking back at everything I can’t help but laugh because I can’t believe how I kept sulking for such a person for a very long time.
As much as we love and care about people one thing we should know is that these people can decide to walk away from our lives without us doing anything.
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Thank you for Reading.