It Is Hard To Fathom...

My Lord:

1 Kings 4:29, " And God gave Solomon wisdom and understanding exceeding much, and largeness of heart, even as the sand that is on the sea shore. "

Hard to fathom one having such a breadeth of understanding and yet falling back.

1 Kings 4:32, " And he spake three thousand proverbs: and his songs were a thousand and five. "

Three thousand proverbs Solomon spoke and yet fell to the lust of the flesh.

1 Kings 4:32, " And he spake three thousand proverbs: and his songs were a thousand and five. "

He sang a thousand and five songs.

I assume he sang of the Lord, what else would anyone of True wisdom sing of? Yet he Solomon lost his way.

The Lord gave Solomon "rest". Notice how it describes the "rest" that Solomon was given.

1 Kings 5:4, " But now the LORD my God hath given me rest on every side, so that there is neither adversary nor evil occurrent. "

NO, NONE, nor any occurence of evil, the true rest that the Lord God gives to His. Not that pretend can not cease from sin yet I know the rest of the Lord, have entered into the rest of the Lord, yet continue in sin. Real, True godly rest from evil, AMEN! It no longer existed, not even incidental, free indeed! Yet Solomon still chose his will over Gods.

1 Kings 11:1, " But king Solomon loved many strange women, together with the daughter of Pharaoh, women of the Moabites, Ammonites, Edomites, Zidonians, and Hittites; "

Even though Solomon had it all and if one takes the time to read 1 Kings 4 - 10, iIt was not enough, to have it all and obey the Lord, for as I have testified and will again here, sin is pure lust, I was shown the image of lust in a vision and it was filthy, disgusting, it was a horror to my soul, it "wanted" without end, it could not be satisfied and will never be satisfied. A wantonness to a degree that no imagination can fathom, the breadeth of it can not be measured for it is without end. This lust of the flesh, this lust of the eyes and the pride of life swallowed up Solomon with all the wisdom he was given, for he lacked the one thing that must be, obedience. It is a written, sin unto death and obedience unto righteousness. He obeyed not, so he was humbled not. One can have all the understanding that can be and without TEMPERANCE/SELF CONTROL, without you will not stand. If you walk not humbly with God Almighty you will not stand.

Christ does not control you or do it for you, He teaches the Way to the Truth to have Life. He was that righteous example for all men to follow who desire righteousness, who thirst after it. They who thirst after righteousness will be filled, they who work will eat and they who work not will not eat. He is our righteous example, eyes set on Him, the mind stayed on Him knows perfect peace, even in the storm, for if you believe in Him, you know He is right there with you. He will strengthen you to be able to endure if you will trust in Him. His grace is what? sufficient, why? It teaches us how to do it, how to be strong in the Lord, to be made strong out of weakness, that is submit thyself unto the Lord, the true weakness. Believe and show forth the fruit of these words belief, faith and grace! A working faith by love. Love never fails, it suffers long, it endures with you until the bitter end. True love does not fail! The hear that belongs to the Lord does not fail, the mind that belongs to the Lord does not fail, the one who gives all their might unto the Lord out of love does not fail. Only when you walk away, turn from Him, go whoring with lies and no longer stand in the gap before Him. When you refuse the Truth and go whoring after other gods, vain inventions of men, vain imaginations of men. When you put anything before God Almighty, you will fail.

1 Kings 11:2, " Of the nations concerning which the LORD said unto the children of Israel, Ye shall not go in to them, neither shall they come in unto you: for surely they will turn away your heart after their gods: Solomon clave unto these in love. "

For the pleasure of the flesh he was willing to turn from God. God hath warned, God hath Commanded, God hath spoke and yet the flesh Solomon served, he clave unto these things God forbid in "love". Knowing full well one must love God with all thine heart, mind, soul, body and might. His many wives turned his heart from God and unto other gods. His many lusts deceived him, his lack of temperance, self control, refused to bring his body into subjection and allowed it to rule over his spirit. Do not well and sin lies at the door desiring to rule you. Do well and you will rule over it. Solomon had the same free will nature as all men, he could of chose to obey, but he chose to follow the lust of the flesh. Never think yourself more than you are, do not get puffed up, high minded, proud, it is all vanity, it is vain, useless, of no gain. It appears to be but that is the deception, the lie. It looks good, looks pleasant and to be desired but it is not good, not pleasant and is not to be desired. He went after other gods, chased after inventions of men, merchandised, chased things that are nothing, things that could not increase him, could not grow him. Worthless gods, worthless ideas of whom god ought to be to men and not men to the one true God. To myself what a warning, what a woe, what a painful Truth. Fight not and you will be overcome, it will not be done for you. Diligently seek or you will not be able to enter in. Do not take lightly the gravity of the situation that is put before us all. Do not take lightly your salvation, fight at all times be ready. Prepare for war, the hands taught to fight, pick up the book of the Lord and read with your hands. Put on the armor of God and you will be able, with Him you can not fail, turn from Him and He will turn from you and you will fail. Without Him we can do nothing, with Him we are able to do all things.

1 Kings 11:4, " For it came to pass, when Solomon was old, that his wives turned away his heart after other gods: and his heart was not perfect with the LORD his God, as was the heart of David his father. "

Solomon knew the rest of God, had wisdom more than any, for sin it was all taken. The Lord stirred up enemies to be against Solomon, even Solomon's own servant lifted his hands against him. No more did Solomon know rest, peace, safety, for in sin there is NOT any such truth. For in sin, in the service of thine flesh there can be no rest. One can only pretend, having to ignore the pain of the punishment of sin, pretend to know the rest of God, pretend to know the peace of God, pretend to know the safety of God. They who name Christ DEPART from iniquity, they do not partake, they are peculiar to the world. The world does not turn from evil it boasts of it, champions it, reason with it, excuses it, calls it good, sells it, loves it, chases it, finds pleasure in it and them that do it. To the world it is alright, no big deal, just for fun, no harm, but to the people of God it is a big deal, it is not fun, and it most certainly harms. One sinner DESTROYS much good, the blind leading the blind into the pit of hell, leading them to death, the everlasting destruction from the presence of the Lord.

1 Kings 11:26, " And Jeroboam the son of Nebat, an Ephrathite of Zereda, Solomon's servant, whose mother's name was Zeruah, a widow woman, even he lifted up his hand against the king. "

Isaiah 48:22, " There is no peace, saith the LORD, unto the wicked. "

Isaiah 57:21, " There is no peace, saith my God, to the wicked. "

Jeremiah 6:14, " They have healed also the hurt of the daughter of my people slightly, saying, Peace, peace; when there is no peace. "

Jeremiah 8:11, " For they have healed the hurt of the daughter of my people slightly, saying, Peace, peace; when there is no peace. "

Ezekiel 13:10, " Because, even because they have seduced my people, saying, Peace; and there was no peace; and one built up a wall, and, lo, others daubed it with untempered morter: "

Ezekiel 13:16, " To wit, the prophets of Israel which prophesy concerning Jerusalem, and which see visions of peace for her, and there is no peace, saith the Lord GOD. "

For the Lords servant David sake, Solomon was not completely without a Kingdom. This disproves the lie of no one could keep the Commandments of God, and there are many others proofs that the Commandments of God can be kept. For the sake of David who kept the Commandments and the Statutes Solomon was given one tribe.

1 Kings 11:34, " Howbeit I will not take the whole kingdom out of his hand: but I will make him prince all the days of his life for David my servant's sake, whom I chose, because he kept my commandments and my statutes: "

When they say no one can keep the Commandments of God and the book of the Lord tells of many who have, I wonder which book those who have spoken such foolishness read?

So that forgetfulness is like a plague, when the flesh desires so much, man can be so easily lead away from the Lord. If one does not as Paul hath written, to bring the body into subjection. To do as the Lord God said, rule over it, rule over yourselves or sin will rule over you. It is perfectly simple, yet easily lost in the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes and the pride of life.

Deuteronomy 4:9, " Only take heed to thyself, and keep thy soul diligently, lest thou forget the things which thine eyes have seen, and lest they depart from thy heart all the days of thy life: but teach them thy sons, and thy sons' sons; "

Deuteronomy 4:23, " Take heed unto yourselves, lest ye forget the covenant of the LORD your God, which he made with you, and make you a graven image, or the likeness of any thing, which the LORD thy God hath forbidden thee. "

James 1:25, " But whoso looketh into the perfect law of liberty, and continueth therein, he being not a forgetful hearer, but a doer of the work, this man shall be blessed in his deed. "

Solomon twice spoke with God whom appeared to him, yet forgot, for he heeded not what was seen and heard. The Truth one must endure till the end. God warned Solomon twice of the things he must not do (that list of do and do not do, so many refuse to believe exists, the ones sung by professed Christians in song). With the word of God one can tear down the stronghold of lies they speak. Can reject them who open their mouths when they ought to be silent, who teach what ought not be taught.

1 Kings 11:9, " And the LORD was angry with Solomon, because his heart was turned from the LORD God of Israel, which had appeared unto him twice, "

To take heed, is that "hedge" spoken of. It is that wall that protects the city, which is thine heart from the wickedness, form all the lies that are sold, all the winds of doctrines of men that people trade like fleas on dogs. To take heed, to hedge about thine heart so evil can not overcome thee. So you will not buy original sin, irresistible grace, once saved always saved, sin confess repeat again next week, sin nature, born to sin, inheriting our parents sin, and on and on they tell lies upon lies, selling them, buying them, merchandising in them.

Proverbs 15:19, " The way of the slothful man is as an hedge of thorns: but the way of the righteous is made plain. "

The man that works not, eats not. They who says nothing is required of me, God does it all for me, the slothful man that buried his talents and increased the Lord not at all, the one cast out into outer darkness, where there will be weeping, wailing and gnashing of teeth from the horror of being outside the presence of God. That slothful man is as an hedge of thorns, anyone need not walk through a black berry bush to understand this? Walking through life with constant snags, pricks, pain, punishment, the part of there being NO rest for sin. Yet the righteous way is plain, without the pain of sin. The yoke of the Lord is light, easy and not a burden as sin is.

Ecclesiastes 10:8, " He that diggeth a pit shall fall into it; and whoso breaketh an hedge, a serpent shall bite him. "

The reward for breaking the protection of the heart, of the city wall, to allow evil to enter in without resistance. To cause others to fall, to tear down the hedge of others. The reward that awaits the bite of the serpent for them. Better to hang a mill stone about the neck and cast thine self into the sea than to hurt one of these little ones. To teach lies, to spread falsehoods, to say ye have liberty when they themselves serve their flesh and know no liberty, have no freedom, are still bound in the bondage of sin and death. To deceive others that the false way is the right way, woe unto them that teach such things, who say the Lord hath said and He hath nothing.

Ezekiel 13:5, " Ye have not gone up into the gaps, neither made up the hedge for the house of Israel to stand in the battle in the day of the LORD. "

The hedge that will allow you to stand in the day of battle, in the day of the Lord, that great and dark terrible day of the Lord, who the foolish say come ye and the book says woe to them that desire the day of the Lord, what good will it be for you? Pray the Lord longsuffers, so more can build their hedges, so more can take heed, more can bring their bodies into subjection, more can Repent and chase the Lord, more time to prepare, to work it out and dig even deeper, doing all that we can to stand in the day. While I can not wait to be with the Lord, I desire Him to longsuffer till His will be done, that none may perish. Build yourselves up in the Truth, working out your own salvation with fear and trembling. Striving to enter in, running, racing the race set before all mankind. Building up that wall, becoming a defense city, able to withstand all the fiery darts of the devil and them that work for him.

Proverbs 25:28, " He that hath no rule over his own spirit is like a city that is broken down, and without walls. "

Again, temperance, self control, the warning God gave Cain before he murdered Able his brother, "rule over it", for the anyone who does not rule over themselves, take heed to themselves is like a city without protection, without walls, without the hedge. Temptation can enter in without resistance, when the lust of the flesh is given into sin is conceived, sin is born in you. You must eat of the butter and the honey to know to refuse the evil and choose the good. Blessed is the man that endures temptation and not the man that gives into it. The increase is found in resisting not evil but resisting the devil and resisting not God. Perfection is in suffering for the right reasons, for the perfect will of God.

Could one imagine what is written in the book of the acts of Solomon? The wisest man to live but of course the Lord Jesus, and yet for lust gave up the Commandments of God and led astray by his wives to serve nothing. He served an invention of the imagination of men, silly statues like Mary maybe, yes indeed. Burning incense unto the queen of heaven, to serve a rock, some pieces of wood, a silly image that can do nothing at all, when he knew the Lord. Can you fathom hearing from God and giving it up for a statue of something that does not even exist? Some invention you have in your own self. Then to seek to kill others that God hath blessed, out of your envy of them. What a example of the lust of the flesh, the horror of serving ones own desires over Gods.

With all this one thing always stands out to me, not matter where I read I hear the same story over and over. Be it in the old or the new, the story remains the same. God warns and gives, the people hear and take, then ignore the Commandments given, making up their own. For doing evil, pain is found, punishment is certain, all for a vain imagination of mans creation. It just keeps repeating itself over and over. I tasted of something so perfect it can not be comprehended, no imagination can imagine it. I wonder did any of them taste of the perfection I felt and was shown when the Lord revealed Himself in me?

If they had tasted of what have, then it truly is freighting to think how easily so many turned from the Lord. How with time they became complacent, stopped working, distraction set in and things that bear no importance became important. I have no answer for how the man with the most wisdom of all men save the Lord could be carried away by what he clearly knew to be nothing. Other gods that are not gods at all. I understand the distraction in the world, the wanting to please others and so one compromises their morals for them. But to be so wise in the world and God, so rich in the world and God and to walk away from it, defies all logic. What I felt when Christ revealed Himself in me I can not express, I have not felt anything in this world to compare it to. Every moment of joy and happiness, ever good thing I have known in the flesh, all that this world has to offer, does not begin to scratch the surface of the glory of the Lord God. All I want is it back, I hate this life, I want to be with the Lord, back in his presence.

I have not the wisdom of Solomon, I know but a couple of songs, a few Psalms. In the world I am very poor, in the Spirit I am rich beyond my own ability to know. I actually heard from the Lord, have had visions and dreams beyond all that I thought possible. Experienced things I know many desire to experience, so I have been blessed for some reason. I know this gift can not be measured, I can do it no justice with words. Hearing of all who have known the Lord and turned their backs on Him causes one to wonder how could I possibly make it, endure it? I will I stand fast?

I know I must run, I must put forth the effort each day to retain the Lord. I know if I do not I will lose sight of Him, that this world will kill me, steal it from me, will destroy me if I do not race the race, seek, study, affirm, chase, be diligent, prove, make sure, count the cost, work it out with fear and trembling, believe with all my heart, have faith working by love, be filled with all the contents of what is found between faith - love. FIGHT! That little dash in the middle, must be effectual, it must be in an operation, it must be a fact that my state of being is in love with the Lord. I must not get carried off, I must not become distracted by the foolishness of this world. Become not trapped by the foolish wisdom of man, by what they world calls important yet has not even a little importance.

Faithful obedience to the lord who bought me and set me free indeed. Do what I was told to do, to "tell of Him" and do so to the best of the ability given to me. Even though I feel no matter what I say or write fails to express what I have come to know. No matter how trapped I am between knowing I need to tell of Him, yet yearning to be with Him, I must endure till the end. i press towards the mark, the mastery of the high calling. I must do all I can to stand in the day of the Lord, for it is at the door. I tasted of the urgency and it was NOW, NOW, NOW and with time this urgency has faded. It is a horror to realize how easy it fades and how much you have to fight for it. I have gone over this many times now, testified how in the beginning it was so easy, being filled with the Spirit of God, blessing each step, joy unspeakable, nothing could move me, I yearned deep in my soul to tell all that I had heard. This parable of the finding her coin yells, screams the Truth, I lived this parable, as I have lived so many things written in the book of the Lord. It defies my ability to wrap myself completely around it all. How is this my life?

Luke 15:3, " And he spake this parable unto them, saying,

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What man of you, having an hundred sheep, if he lose one of them, doth not leave the ninety and nine in the wilderness, and go after that which is lost, until he find it?

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And when he hath found it, he layeth it on his shoulders, rejoicing.

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And when he cometh home, he calleth together his friends and neighbours, saying unto them, Rejoice with me; for I have found my sheep which was lost.

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I say unto you, that likewise joy shall be in heaven over one sinner that repenteth, more than over ninety and nine just persons, which need no repentance.

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Either what woman having ten pieces of silver, if she lose one piece, doth not light a candle, and sweep the house, and seek diligently till she find it?

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And when she hath found it, she calleth her friends and her neighbours together, saying, Rejoice with me; for I have found the piece which I had lost.

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Likewise, I say unto you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner that repenteth. "

I called everyone I knew to come and rejoice with me but few wanted to, I wanted to tell everyone what I had heard, lived, felt, seen, I wanted to give them this perfect gift I had been given. While I understand it, the lack luster in most of them, hurt. I had found the the Lord God and heard from Him, I had even died and was given the choice to stay or go and i stayed knowing that I must tell all that I could of the Lord. That many thought themselves to be saved and yet they were not. I had not idea in that moment that this would offend most of them to the point of hating me. I had not idea of what was to come, how hard it would really be, I had some preconceived ideas but they were shattered. What is called the way in the world is a lie. what they who pretend to know the Lord sell is a lie. How overwhelming it all was to realize, and what am I? who am I to reprove anyone, to rebuke anyone, to instruct anyone? The highs and the lows, the storm was great and is great. To find peace as the waves came over the bow, I was sure I would not make at times. All I had to do was keep my mind upon the Lord, he was right there with me but there is so much doubt and falsehoods in the world it wears on you. Fight, help me Lord to fight this fight of faith working by love. I love the Lord with all my heart, let me not be carried away with vain inventions of men. let me not choose anyone over you, allow me to do what is required of me and to know what that is. Let me please You O Lord and not men. Let me work with You, labor with You and not fail.

Only by grace would I be able, only if I came to know the Truth. That it was not done for me, I had to fight, a soldier fights, it is not sit on the couch smoke pot and it would all be done for me as I read the book of the Lord looking for the least amount of condemnation, or ways that I was saved no matter what I did. I had to know the grace that teaches one to deny ungodliness and worldly lusts and to live sober righteous and godly n this present world, right here right now. Do not be the foolish virgins who prepared not, having a lamp not filled with oil. I have to be ready, preparing, lamp filled with oil waiting patiently upon the Lord so I can answer the second he knocks. Must not become that slothful servant who buried the talent given him. I can not say if I received one talent or five. I feel as if i have been given much. This scares me, for I know I must increase the Lord who gets His by usury. He lent to me talents and REQUIRES interest from me. If He gave me more than I realize, I must do my best to increase Him. Five must become ten, ten must become twenty, I do not know all the mysteries as Paul did. I can not afford to get this wrong, I can not become the slothful lazy servant who give the Lord no increase. The gravity of the situation is ever before my face.

Am I doing all that I can, am I doing what I was told to do?

I must go to work and pay my bills, help those I can, do all the things required of me by this world and still do the important work of telling of the Lord and not be carried off by this world and all that it tries to distract with. Lord help me, search me and show me all that I must know and do to make it. Let me hold unto no lies and even though I am surrounded by the enemy on all sides telling me of the sin nature, once saved always saved, all done for us already, and every foul thing they invent and sell, let me weary not taking up nothing they have to offer. My heart belongs to You and You alone, my love is Thine and I do not want anything before You or after You. I am not wise and You are all wise, teach me and let me lack for no good thing. Let evil be far from me, search me O Lord and keep me Amen.

Again,

Work out my own salvation, go over it.

Look for the measure to measure with, look for the pattern, look for the Way that is one.

The works of the flesh are these and they can measure you.

Galatians 5:19, " Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness,

Galatians 5:20 Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies,

Galatians 5:21 Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God. "

All of the works are clear but one that always stands above all the rest, lasciviousness. That license to sin, the freedom from being moral or having to have temperance. Just this one word measures much and in it a pattern is easily found.

Lasciviousness, licentiousness, lubricity, luxury, gigolo, a pattern indeed. A license, wantonness, sinful self indulgence, debauchery, dissoluteness, lascivency, to be indifferent to moral restraint, harlotry, fornication, cheating, adultery, to be unrestrained and free to commit, that is liberty and freedom in doing these things. Also the Law being made void, or lawlessness, iniquity, all the words used in Galatians 5 to describe the works of the flesh and them that walk in the flesh and not the Spirit. The desire to have the sin nature so to be blameless. The nature to commit all these vile things and have excuse, to work out why they can not but sin and not why they can Go and Sin No More.

They walk in the vanity of their own minds, the vain imaginations, their own inventions and they share them with others, the buy and sell to each others these idols of men. By vanity they create the false promise, the false witness, the buffet, the banquet in which to eat of the lies and not the Truth.

Ephesians 4:17, " This I say therefore, and testify in the Lord, that ye henceforth walk not as other Gentiles walk, in the vanity of their mind, "

Hard to kick against the pricks until one can not feel them anymore, they who are past being able to feel the conscience prick them, their hearts being blind, the conscience seared by all the merchandise they have bought, completely distracted, carried away by lust. One must always remember they have the form of godliness, but deny the power of being godly. The most dangerous all is this false witness that confuses so many, that prevents so many from finding the Way to the Truth to have Life. The gate hidden from them by them who falsely claim the way is liberty, freedom, lasciviousness, no moral restraint, some yes but what they pick and choose to be restrained by and not what the Word of God says. the buffet that one can pick and choose of what they will eat and what they will not eat. Having faith but adding not the virtue, the knowledge is never come to, so then the temperance/self control never is wanted or needed, unable to then know patience, godliness is out, to them nothing can be godly or pure. They have built upon the sand and not the Rock, this blinds them and keeps them ignorant. Then giving themselves, it is not done for them even in sin, they chose to do it, so it is, they give themselves over to the promise of liberty as they serve corruption. With greediness they do this, willing to fight to keep the lie, they hedge about themselves walls to protect them in sin, rather than be freed from it.

Ephesians 4:19, " Who being past feeling have given themselves over unto lasciviousness, to work all uncleanness with greediness. "

This Christ they speak of I have not learned, the one I know is all about the ability, the fact that it is not done for you but working with Him one can attain perfection. The Christ I have learned says they who "do" righteousness are righteous. No where does it say one is clothed, imbued, imputed, just given to them if they will just give lip service and their hearts can remain infinitely wicked, as so many preach. the story of Christ does not become your story as they say, His finished works are not their finished works, but His works are ones righteous example to follow, to walk by, to put on His mind and step as He steps. Not Him putting His mind in you, you doing it, not Him walking for you, but you being able through Him to walk as He walks. To be born again, receive the new heart, the circumcision by the hand of God, the old man put to death and all things becoming new, one walk in the newness of life. The old man is dead, the child has grown into a man and put away childish things, set free from sin, no longer wanting sin, but to be completely freed from it, search me O Lord. This is the Christ so learned by them who have heard and you have been taught, then the Truth is in Jesus and Him alone. This speaks of true faith, faith bearing the contents of the word faith from faith to love.

Ephesians 4:20, " But ye have not so learned Christ;

Ephesians 4:21 If so be that ye have heard him, and have been taught by him, as the truth is in Jesus: "

That "you" put off the old conversation, burn all the curious arts, all the merchandise you had bought and be free of the lies, let them go, for it is all corrupt according to the deceitful lusts, the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes and the pride of life, which is all that is in the world. "YOU" put on the new man which after God is CREATED IN RIGHTEOUSNESS AND "TRUE" HOLINESS. The fight the battle, the thing to be endured, the denial of self and "you" follow Jesus. "You" come after Him, you give chase and run the race, Christ DOES NOT run it for you, He will run it with you, just ahead of you so you can follow. Called to be workers together, fellow labours with Him.

Ephesians 4:22 That ye put off concerning the former conversation the old man, which is corrupt according to the deceitful lusts;

Ephesians 4:23 And be renewed in the spirit of your mind;

Ephesians 4:24 And that ye put on the new man, which after God is created in righteousness and true holiness. "

The measure is not hidden, it is know to them that are His. They who have heard, they who are His "HAVE" crucified the flesh with the affections and the lusts, the passions and the desires. they walk not in the lust of the flesh, serving the flesh, they yield not to the flesh and the wantonness of it. The flesh will still want, but having heard "you" desire to please not the flesh but the Spirit. "You" bring your bodies into subjection and knowing the Truth, righteous, temperance and the judgement to come ye tremble just as Felix did hearing it. The fear of God before thine face, "you" hate sin and have no pleasure in it or them that serve it. We speak of the sins unto death, those that will keep you from inheriting the Kingdom of God.

Galatians 5:24, " And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts. "

Hard to fathom it is, to have tasted of the presence of the Lord and to turn from it, but many do. Written better to have never known the Way of righteousness then to have known and turned from it. Knowing that there is not such foul thing as once saved always saved, once you remove this lie from before you, you can see all the more clear, to be even more diligent striving to enter in the Gate boldly, being a soldier of Christ ye fight, fight for it, enduring all things with joy knowing the absolute Truth of the Way to the Truth to have Life. Ye have to know the Truth, some have known the Way and have turned, have resisted it, that there is not any Truth in irresistible grace, it is all done for you, once forgiven always forgiven. It is war, all out warfare, the enemy is on all sides. We must abide in the Vine, abide in the Lord, we must do as He has said to do or calling Him Lord means nothing. If you love Him, keep his Commandments, Go and Sin No More.

2 Peter 2:21, " For it had been better for them not to have known the way of righteousness, than, after they have known it, to turn from the holy commandment delivered unto them. "

Hard to fathom it is so people will change this Truth to suit their own vain lust. They will like Solomon go and make their own gods or worship ones others have created themselves. Created them in their own images, or that which please them. it please many to be the potter and God be the clay so they can mold God into that which seems right to them.

Again,

Told to burn the book, which book Lord? No answer. Looking at all my books I said I would burn them all, what did they the mean to me compared to the Lord God? Nothing! So I bagged them all up into a trash bag, pulled the draw string tight and left it sitting in my living room. Walking towards the back door to do another thing and I would get back to getting rid of the trash bag full of books, as I reached the back door, I heard perfectly in me "burn the book", and out loud slightly curt even, "which book"? As I went back to the trash bag filled with books I knew instantly that the book I was to burn would be on top. Perfectly in that little circle left by the draw strings not being able to close all the way by there being so many books in the bag, I could recognize the book. As I acknowledge the book in me a vision, a revelation was shown to me how I referred to this book every time I thought of something spiritual, it was an idol, an image I bought from the writer of that book. It is a popular belief and many speak of it and hold it to be true. It was in the very end of the book that the image of this idol is found. I was shown perfectly how I would refer to it and think this was where I could find God. I will not repeat it anymore, but the Truth is that God is in me, in my heart and not where this book made it appear He was. So by this book one would never look in the right place for Him. It was an idol I burnt no incense to or bowed to or prayed to, yet it was my idol of choice, my free will choice. It was offered to me and I bought it, I was merchandised and I had no idea of it, no conscience understanding of what I had been doing for many years. It was my favorite book and being a fool, I offered this book to many in conversation, speaking of how good it was and how I had read it four times I believe. I would state how I thought they should read it, I was selling the lie to others, offering this snare to others. Thinking myself wise by this book, I thought I was doing them a service, yet I was only hurting them. Killing, stealing and destroying is the way of that evil one, it is so very easy to fall to the many offers made to us in this world.

(I marvel over this event, the odds of that book being placed at the top of the bag face up for me to see it as I leaned over it. I sit here smiling for it was a miracle and still is. I hear people say such foolish things because they have not truly believed. There are no more miracles, no more prophets, no more apostles, so sure of of their own understanding, they would speak such foolishness. God does so many miracles in any given day I imagine and we could hardly fathom the sum of them. God is raising an army to fight the evil and them that fight for it, believe it. This is just one single thing that I lived that stagger the understanding.)

Hard to fathom and yet it is possible absolute!

One must be diligent, ever on guard as to what they consume and to whom they partake with. It is "subtle" so very slight, that spirit of error so easy to entreat and find oneself deceived, deceived willingly, for it can not be by force, it is by one true nature, free will.

Consider it, what would anyone do if they lived what I have, whether you think me a liar or that I lie not.

Consider, one another to PROVOKE unto GOOD WORKS!

Hebrews 10:24 ," And let us consider one another to provoke unto love and to good works: "

By the necessity of the love I found in Christ, I do press to provoke others to good works, to Go and Sin No More.

To consider the gravity of the situation that lays before all mankind. To warn them that the righteous sin not, to warn them and show them sin. Sharing the testimony the Lord thy God has given to me to share. Freely given to me, I freely give. Sharing my walk as I work out my own salvation with fear and trembling. Knowing the terror of the Lord I do seek to convince you all of the Truth. Wanting no one to perish, God wants none to perish but He will not force anyone, nor can evil force anyone, it is a free will choice. God having made ALL men upright, and men choose to walk upright or to be weighted down by sin.

Hard to fathom that anyone would chose to be separated from the presence of the Lord but many have and do.

While the battle is against sin, to fear God, to obey and keep the Commandments out of "love " for Him and not for any other reason. The battle just to retain ones first love is mighty indeed. With all that the world can throw at you and it will throw it all, one must fight to retain what has been given, to fight for it daily, to study, to chase, to race. For at every turn there is something that will take your heart away, your mind away, your body away, your strength away. I test of what do you really love, whom do you truly love?

Time is a destroyer, it wears all things down, rock becomes sand as wind and water slowly through time wear it away. The flesh gets bored, as the Lord said, the flesh is weak but the Spirit is willing, if you walk in the Spirit you will endure till the end. If Christ really did it all there would be nothing to do, one could endure anything without trying, I was in the Spirit and it was powerful beyond all that I have ever known. We are told though that His grace is sufficient, that is the wisdom one must know to endure till the end. The knowledge and the understanding of it. Grace teaches, the butter and the honey teaches, refuse the evil, deny ungodliness and worldly lusts. Choose the good and live sober, righteous and godly in this present world, this time, today, for now is the time for salvation.

Do not weary, keep thy mind upon the Lord is a fight and as witnessed in the book of the Lord even them who have been given so very much can lose sight, forget, become distracted. I pray God Almighty all realize the war we are all in, the battle that must be fought till the very end. Count the cost and be prepared to pay it all, do not wavier, do not move, be ye righteous and ye shall be unmovable.

Words are just words until one puts them into action.

How many times are these words used? Maybe one ought to search for themselves and learn.

Forget, forgetful, weary, distraction, distracted, faint, consider them and measure.

To is beg anyone who might read this to hear the warning, not my warning, for none of this is mine. God has given all we need, He has made it perfectly clear for all who truly love Him.

Take heed is says, keep thy soul diligently, lest you forget the things which your very own eyes and ears have seen and heard. I have spoken of this since almost day one as I felt the Spirit slowly fading. I have testified of my begging in prayer to have it not go away. I knew it would be a fight and I was very scared to lose something so precious that only my tears can express it. On my knees I would go into the shower and beg and cry, please God do not leave me, do not take this from me. I did not think I could make it without it. I was just a baby, I had no understanding, yet I had knowledge. I knew so much, I used to end saying "know", for I knew and yet could not place my finger on what I truly knew. It was so much to wrap my mind around and no help from who I thought would help me. The Lord was and is faithful beyond understanding. He will never leaves those that love Him truly. Like any good parent they allow their their kids to stumble and figure things out. Finding it is far better to obey and suffer for doing right then for doing it wrong. That you learn from doing it right, and for doing it wrong the reward remains the same lesson over and over.

Deuteronomy 4:9, " Only take heed to thyself, and keep thy soul diligently, lest thou forget the things which thine eyes have seen, and lest they depart from thy heart all the days of thy life: but teach them thy sons, and thy sons' sons; "

Consider Deuteronomy 4:9, lest you depart from your heart all the days of your life. I pray it not be so, that you forget not. If you have had an experience like myself, you them know the toll the world has upon you. The horror of losing sight, the fright of allowing hours to pass and you have not thought of your love, inquired of your love, made no effort to be in the presence of your love. How easy it is to allow time to kill, steal and destroy. To become weathered by time and forget, for days seem to remain the same, love waxes cold and evil reigns more and more, and what can I do?

Wanting to say so much, to explain in perfect detail, I get side tracked. I do apologize for not being a word smith and my lack of ability to express myself to any satisfaction of my own. This can take awhile, it always does once I get going. It is the becomes the same thing and people are easily distracted, bored, so much vying for your attention, so much being offered, it is easy to forget, to look away.

This boredom makes one justify themselves, knowing they have drifted away, that the gap has grown wider, they then create excuses. They then begin to make images, they change God into whatever will allow for this gap and still somehow be able to say He is my first love. That buffet of picking and choosing your gods attributes, laws, Commandments. When it stops being every word that proceedeth out of His mouth and becomes just these few select ones. A little here and a little there, in this one can find so very much.

Deuteronomy 4:23, " Take heed unto yourselves, lest ye forget the covenant of the LORD your God, which he made with you, and make you a graven image, or the likeness of any thing, which the LORD thy God hath forbidden thee. "

In the book it tells us lest ye forget that your SINS HAVE BEEN FORGIVEN. Consider the gravity of doing this. Consider the fact that this is written and so it must be so, people actually "forget" their sins have been forgiven them. I actually heard the Lord tell me I was forgiven, I do not know how many get to experience this, how many have heard in themselves the lord tell them they have been forgiven? To hear this and then to be told you can forget it. What is gravity, to be as grace teaches "sober", how sobering is this Truth?

Deuteronomy 6:12, " Then beware lest thou forget the LORD, which brought thee forth out of the land of Egypt, from the house of bondage. "

Do not allow your heart to be lifted up and forget thy first love.

Deuteronomy 8:14, " Then thine heart be lifted up, and thou forget the LORD thy God, which brought thee forth out of the land of Egypt, from the house of bondage; "

If you do forget God and walk after the vain images you create or buy the vain images others create, you will surely perish. Count the cost of leaning upon men, the word men does not just refer to the masculine, surely this should not need be said, but in this day looking around at the shear insanity, it surely does need to be said.

Deuteronomy 8:19, " And it shall be, if thou do at all forget the LORD thy God, and walk after other gods, and serve them, and worship them, I testify against you this day that ye shall surely perish. "

Surely do not forget this warning.

Psalms 9:17, " The wicked shall be turned into hell, and all the nations that forget God. "

Forget not the works of God, not what you have heard and seen. Fight to keep them in you, allow nothing to lift you, keep the Commandments if you "love" Him.

Psalms 78:7, " That they might set their hope in God, and not forget the works of God, but keep his commandments: "

I will not forget is I be diligent, if I chase and race. If I affirm, if I examine, if I seek and inquire all the days of my life, I will not forget... Faith establishes the law in me, I will not forget. Faith works by love, I will not forget. Faith is faithful, I will not forget. I will do all I can to stand so I will not forget. I will not forget thy Law that is in me, I will delight in knowing every word.

Psalms 119:16, " I will delight myself in thy statutes: I will not forget thy word. "

Psalms 119:83, " For I am become like a bottle in the smoke; yet do I not forget thy statutes. "

With them thou has given me "LIFE"! Written them in me to express Your love to me, so I can walk as I must, so I can measure and know where I stand, to what I hold fast to. For they are your love to me and I delight in them. I know this is the Way, for You have walked this Way.

Psalms 119:93, " I will never forget thy precepts: for with them thou hast quickened me. "

Psalms 119:109, " My soul is continually in my hand: yet do I not forget thy law. "

Psalms 119:141, " I am small and despised: yet do not I forget thy precepts. "

Psalms 119:153, " Consider mine affliction, and deliver me: for I do not forget thy law. "

Psalms 119:176, " I have gone astray like a lost sheep; seek thy servant; for I do not forget thy commandments. "

In thine heart they are written, let not thine heart forget them. If if be you have found Him, heard from Him and have true faith in Him, you know then what was found in that moment of faith.

Proverbs 3:1, " My son, forget not my law; but let thine heart keep my commandments: "

Here is the treasure of God, here is the gold nuggets hidden within His Word.

Proverbs 4:5, " Get wisdom, get understanding: forget it not; neither decline from the words of my mouth. "

True love never fails, the Lord will never forget thee. He is faithful to the end, likewise we must be faithful to Him.

Isaiah 49:15, " Can a woman forget her sucking child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? yea, they may forget, yet will I not forget thee. "

The bride prepares and does not forget.

Jeremiah 2:32, " Can a maid forget her ornaments, or a bride her attire? yet my people have forgotten me days without number. "

Weary not of doing good, Peter do you love Me? Yes Lord, then feed My flock.

Do good and communicate "FORGET" not! This is pleasing to God and this is whom I love and desire to please above all. A doer of the Word and not just a user of words.

Hebrews 13:16, " But to do good and to communicate forget not: for with such sacrifices God is well pleased. "

James 1:25, " But whoso looketh into the perfect law of liberty, and continueth therein, he being not a forgetful hearer, but a doer of the work, this man shall be blessed in his deed. "

Attend upon the Lord without distraction, consider what Paul has said, what causes distraction? Paul said he means it not to be a snare upon you, but indeed consider it so you forget not.

1 Corinthians 7:35, " And this I speak for your own profit; not that I may cast a snare upon you, but for that which is comely, and that ye may attend upon the Lord without distraction. "

If there is no light, no candles lit, who will know the wonders of the Lord God? Who will meditate upon them, wonder of them, make inquire of the Lord. In the land of forgetfulness who knows the Way of Righteousness?

Psalms 88:12, " Shall thy wonders be known in the dark? and thy righteousness in the land of forgetfulness? "

Who can feed to flock if they forget, if they do not fight, if they do not wake from their slumber?

Judges 8:15, " And he came unto the men of Succoth, and said, Behold Zebah and Zalmunna with whom ye did upbraid me, saying, Are the hands of Zebah and Zalmunna now in thine hand, that we should give bread unto thy men that are weary? "

They in the wilderness need to eat of the butter and the honey so they will "KNOW" to refuse the evil and choose the good.

2 Samuel 17:29, " And honey, and butter, and sheep, and cheese of kine, for David, and for the people that were with him, to eat: for they said, The people is hungry, and weary, and thirsty, in the wilderness. "

Isaiah 7:15, " Butter and honey shall he eat, that he may know to refuse the evil, and choose the good. "

Christ KNEW for He ate of the butter and the honey, He was not forgetful, so He knew what to refuse and what to choose.

Isaiah 7:16, " For before the child shall know to refuse the evil, and choose the good, the land that thou abhorrest shall be forsaken of both her kings. "

Again,

Being separated from the Lord, having known His presence truly, this wearies one, this wears one down, many can be led off, can forget, and do so sadly willingly. Grow tired of doing good and take up one of the many false gods, for the many they parade in the world are much easier to please to the flesh. For the flesh is weak indeed. One will run of an play the harlot, fornicating with vain images that they have in their own hearts. They divide their hearts, the share the cups and the tables, they are double minded, selecting from all the lies to build their own images.

Psalms 6:6, " I am weary with my groaning; all the night make I my bed to swim; I water my couch with my tears. "

Hosea 10:2, " Their heart is divided; now shall they be found faulty: he shall break down their altars, he shall spoil their images. "

Again,

You need not make a physical image, it is easy to create one in thyself.

Ezekiel 14:3, " Son of man, these men have set up their idols in their heart, and put the stumblingblock of their iniquity before their face: should I be enquired of at all by them? "

The heart that is whorish departs from God and looks after to find a god that pleases them and not them pleasing God!

Ezekiel 6:9, " And they that escape of you shall remember me among the nations whither they shall be carried captives, because I am broken with their whorish heart, which hath departed from me, and with their eyes, which go a whoring after their idols: and they shall lothe themselves for the evils which they have committed in all their abominations. "

In the heart the have placed the items they have selected from the buffet, the banquet of lies and images in which they go whoring with. Building with the untempered mortar, hedged about with false witness, false prophets, speaking well of them who scratch their itchy ears, who sell the most pleasing image of what they want God to be.

Ezekiel 14:4, " Therefore speak unto them, and say unto them, Thus saith the Lord GOD; Every man of the house of Israel that setteth up his idols in his heart, and putteth the stumblingblock of his iniquity before his face, and cometh to the prophet; I the LORD will answer him that cometh according to the multitude of his idols; "

Ezekiel 14:7, " For every one of the house of Israel, or of the stranger that sojourneth in Israel, which separateth himself from me, and setteth up his idols in his heart, and putteth the stumblingblock of his iniquity before his face, and cometh to a prophet to enquire of him concerning me; I the LORD will answer him by myself: "

The war that goes unnoticed, hoe this weariness wears you down. Yes sin wears upon you, yet one grows weary waiting, this time can distract you. I have said it over and over, how I desire to be with the Lord, of Paul testifying of being in a betwixt, caught between His desire to be back in the presence of the Lord and knowing it is far better for you that he stay. Most miserable, the testimony one only finds from someone who truly knows, truly has heard, truly has tasted that the Lord is gracious to a unexplainable degree. One must warn of the fight that must be endured in the battle of the war that is before all mankind. When so many are lost in the distraction of what amounts to nothing, death. More to weary of and yet in all of this if ye keep your mind set upon the Lord you will know peace. It is not done for you anyone, all must fight the good fight of faith working by love. Faithfulness, fidelity, loyalty, monogamy to thy first love and proving it in their deeds, works, actions, in what they do is what they are, what they belong to, what they show forth of the treasures stored in their own hearts, what they yield to is to what they serve.

Psalms 69:3, " I am weary of my crying: my throat is dried: mine eyes fail while I wait for my God. "

So much to learn, so much to weary of, again being warned to not weary of the correction, to take it in stride and rejoice for you are loved, knowing that they the Father loves are corrected by Him.

Proverbs 3:11, " My son, despise not the chastening of the LORD; neither be weary of his correction: "

Isaiah 28:8, " For all tables are full of vomit and filthiness, so that there is no place clean.

Isaiah 28:9 Whom shall he teach knowledge? and whom shall he make to understand doctrine? them that are weaned from the milk, and drawn from the breasts.

Isaiah 28:10 For precept must be upon precept, precept upon precept; line upon line, line upon line; here a little, and there a little:

Isaiah 28:11 For with stammering lips and another tongue will he speak to this people.

Isaiah 28:12 To whom he said, This is the rest wherewith ye may cause the weary to rest; and this is the refreshing: yet they would not hear. "

Turn the battle to the Gate, forget not, look upon the Lord, lean upon the Lord, let God be the Truth and every man a liar. Trust not in princes or men, trust ye in the Lord God, set your affections and desires upon Him, make no provisions for the flesh to fulfill the lust thereof. Fight the good fight of faith working by love, for it is out of love one fights for their first love, out of love one never fails, never falls, is ever able to do all that the Lord has said. Watch!

Could you not stay awake for an hour? The flesh is weak but the Spirit is willing. Walk ye not in the flesh but in the Spirit. Walk by faith, then prove it, prove your love is faithful, loyal, that ye love Him and Him alone, fight for thine Lord, if it be ye call Him Lord, then do as he has said. If ye Love Me then keep My Commandments.

Isaiah 28:5, " In that day shall the LORD of hosts be for a crown of glory, and for a diadem of beauty, unto the residue of his people,

Isaiah 28:6 And for a spirit of judgment to him that sitteth in judgment, and for strength to them that turn the battle to the gate. "

Do not weary in well doing, you can do so, it is possible, if you do not turn to the Gate and lean upon the Lord with all thine heart, all thine mind, all thine soul, all thine body, all thine strength and all thine might.

2 Thessalonians 3:13, " But ye, brethren, be not weary in well doing. "

Galatians 6:9, " And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. "

Proverbs 24:13, " My son, eat thou honey, because it is good; and the honeycomb, which is sweet to thy taste:

Proverbs 24:14, " So shall the knowledge of wisdom be unto thy soul: when thou hast found it, then there shall be a reward, and thy expectation shall not be cut off. "

Wisdom, knowledge and understanding.

Again, if ye follow me as I follow Christ ye already know, yet is it grievious for me to write it again? Nay, it makes me strong to go over and over it, by doing so I reap of what I have sown. Makes me unmovable, for upon this Rock I stand and I shall not be moved by them, I fear not their faces, nor their inventions that they do chase.

The warning is faint not, for it is possible or there would be no need to warn. If it were all done already, if my book was the book of the Lords work, then what would I need of any warning, this is the license to sin and it take many, many, many forms. To just say do you believe in a license to sin is not of any service, of any use if you do not tell them, warn them, show them their sin. Explain it, if ye be learned, most will say they do not believe in it and yet have built with it. Using one of the many forms of it. Do not sell part of the Truth, buy the whole of the Truth and sell it not. Let not the terror of their faces turn you from the work at hand. Please the Lord and not men.

Deuteronomy 20:3, " And shall say unto them, Hear, O Israel, ye approach this day unto battle against your enemies: let not your hearts faint, fear not, and do not tremble, neither be ye terrified because of them; "

Isaiah 58:1, " Cry aloud, spare not, lift up thy voice like a trumpet, and shew my people their transgression, and the house of Jacob their sins. "

Pray and faint not.

Luke 18:1, " And he spake a parable unto them to this end, that men ought always to pray, and not to faint; "

There are many more, but I do not want you to faint, yet to consider. It is hard to fathom tasting and turning away. Turn to the Gate!

Hebrews 12:3, " For consider him that endured such contradiction of sinners against himself, lest ye be wearied and faint in your minds. "

Wait upon the Lord and you shall be renewed, wait upon the Lord, turn to the Gate.

Isaiah 40:31, " But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. "

It is a war and as one longs for the Lord fainteth not. All that I am cries out for the Lord, all my heart, mind and soul. It is a work to fight, to endure till the end. If you can not run with the footmen, how will you run with the horsemen?

Psalms 84:2, " My soul longeth, yea, even fainteth for the courts of the LORD: my heart and my flesh crieth out for the living God. "

Jeremiah 12:5, " If thou hast run with the footmen, and they have wearied thee, then how canst thou contend with horses? and if in the land of peace, wherein thou trustedst, they wearied thee, then how wilt thou do in the swelling of Jordan? "

With all your might, fight, you are able if they hope is in Him.

Psalms 119:81, " My soul fainteth for thy salvation: but I hope in thy word. "

He is the Bridegroom, He faints not, nor does He weary, put upon you this His mind for there is not searching His understanding, nor can I express it.

Isaiah 40:28, " Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? there is no searching of his understanding. "

It is hard to fathom, but forget not.

This is my Lords day, this day God created for man and not man for it. With is own finger He wrote it in stone. Strive to enter in, fight to enter in, do all that you can to stand. This day, this seventh day I am refreshed, renewed, I have rest. It did not save me, nor can it save anyone, it is why I obey it, for I am saved, set free indeed.

Go and Sin No More and forget not.

Blessed be the Name of the Lord Amen and Amen.

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