I do not fear death and at times, I welcome it. I often feel I am in a world that I don't want to be a part of, but some parts of it still seem to want to need me for some time still, whether that is true or not.

I haven't read much MA other than a few quotes here and there in regards to stoicism, but perhaps the posthumous fame he has is not ironic, but rather evidence of what he was getting at. Live a full life, do what must be done, and the rest is out of his control. It flows where it goes, and he no longer influences or is influenced by the ripples.