Wow, so yeah that’s what exhaustion looks like, I literally fell asleep, could not work out what time it was so woke up and then fell asleep again, woke up at like 3am when the rains started then fell asleep for another four hours after that, most interrupted sleeps ever but here I am — alive and kicking and feeling good, went straight for the coffee route as soon as I got up, don’t worry I have water/pop as well to balance things out.
Looks like I’ve got another clear straight day, I don’t blame poppet for spending time with mum while she’s off she’s gonna be here tomorrow I expect, maybe overnight I’m not sure, either way, I’ll rally myself by then and see where we are at mentally for the rest of the weekend — but I’m pumped to be recording podcasts with you today so let’s get that back on track eh! :)
Just before 8am, I’m gonna flip the script around this morning and do my modding first thing with the text for the top 10 and the vlog (#100 today wah!) and then hit the recordings all in one block - vlog, top 10 and then a number more of episodes to add to the course, that’s really working out for me and the temps are gonna be low for me today — don’t worry about what time you wanna record today I feel like I’ve got the mental energy to crack on with it because I really want those pieces of media to go LIVE today! :)
So welcome to another THURSDAY biza, cracking through the days we are, of course I have anxiety and stress like I always do at this time of the month but hey, we are still here alive and kicking, ice breaking up, ring of fire about to pop and just general unrest and wake up realisation energy that we were mostly all sold a lie in our collective countries in some ways — we make our time in different ways I guess, the time countdowns and means that we can start to get working on that VISA money right? — man I’d love nothing more to come into a chunk of change right now and drop that TEN year passport and get you here. Your chicken soup fixes the WORLD! :)
Your gif game was super strong btw from your last post I read, I’m a little bit behind with what is what so I’m just going on the phone with the iPhone and the dog with the crazy eyes! Had me smiling in my little van here in the uk for that one! — you always are one to make me smile and pick me up, I thank you for that, you’ve always have had that ability my little timelord from another mother! :)
Yeah it’s weird you know but it’s not that pseudo positive energy either — sometimes you can do that ‘everything is fine’ situation where you bury your head in the sand and just go along with everything but I honestly believe that things happen for a reason right? — I had a few hungry days and moments in the last few weeks where I had to make the decision between certain things and there is nothing like the wake up call of having to realise that you have to RALLY up — then you look around and look what resources you have an realise you have the biggest resource right in front of you — your mouse and keyboard and internet connection (reminds me, I need internet update at some point eekkk)
So yeah I don’t know I’ve not had those dark days where I get lost in my own thoughts and I think that’s because i’ve been super focused on the outcomes but also I remembered why I used to do all the vlogging anyway, it was all presence, geo, I’m here, I’m alive, wanting to leave something behind, making something so familiar that it was not something that I did it was just an extension of my arm and hand, with the camera on the end — it’s the reason why I recorded so so many audio interviews, I was obsessed with other peoples trajectory, what made them tick and why they were heading there, that’s why I’m so excited for the podcast because I think that brings out a certain side of both of us.
And think about that for a moment too, that’s the one thing that we both managed to do with MATHS, that’s right those calculations of the witnesses on the blockchain, the emitting daily steem and sbd we managed to share a slice of allowed us to re-invest into silicon machines that initially existed as sand itself.
incredible when you think about it, the way human hands shape and model things over the generation bringing about a bigger amplitude and amplification effect every time with advancements further and further forward — I mean the age of the transhuman has just begun too, the chapter of enhanced humans has begun — just you wait until everything we do is carried with us internally on our own blockchain… it will be called something else and be lightyears ahead of the current models but it’s coming..
So yeah, it’s weird right now I’m kinda exactly where I’d expected I’d be rallying the troops in my own way, I know I’ve got to at least 3x my effort levels now and I realise that will push me to breaking point but the alternative is not really worth thinking about, we have this INCREDIBLE OPPORTUNITY of life in this plain and we should embraced it daily, heck HOURLY right, TWENTY FOUR hours making up our supposed days, it’s a wonderful big bright dream biza! :)
I’m glad I’ve been able so far to spend time with the people I’ve come across in life, with you, my daughter, with the interesting experiences and items that come your way, that some how get magnetised and attracted to us, that’s what living the journey is right, being open to the change, adapting to it rapidly, stepping it up another level just to see where you cap or tap out because you’ve not gotten to that level of emotional intelligence yet, that you still have things to work on and being EXCITED that you know you can push through to whatever the outcome is — that, that’s the good stuff right there.
Even if the planet you and me literally turns to dust and ash and falls inward on itself, if the earthquakes rattle our bones and the lava pools spit pure fury and the poles reverse and flip our world view thinking the process I’ll always carry this infinite memory of a life well spent — with you being a part of it I’ll remember most fondly, you can’t buy that, you can’t hack that, it just is, we are both blessed to have been given the opportunity so we need to grasp with both hands and ride that damn horse over the cliff tops like a modern day thelma and louise into the upcoming abyss below my biza! :)
Oh and yeah from your blog. . ..
I already thought the 80’s thing came and went in the early 2000s but I really do dig this “80’s interpretation of a dystopian future”
Well I think we already lived it out in Japan in some ways, what with American importing those square muscle cars and then you have all the neon of downtown Japan, so really the retro(wave) of this is probably riding the crest of that — I personally would be happy to have lived out or to go to live out next a life living at 3am retro wave styli driving into Japan on their epic expressway listening to retro wave with the blurring of the city lights — I’m totally down for that, sign me up! :)
I’ll speak to you shortly.
Lots of love and hugs and stuff,
Da Mouser,
T E A M H U M B L E
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