You said you'd never go back to him, sadly you have.
He manipulated you taunted you controlled your every moment, still it was never good enough for him.
Be afraid! Don't talk to anyone. You know there'll be consequences if you do. Why did you look at that person? What did he say? The poor man couldn't find his way in the shop but you must be cheating. Not gonna be the last you hear of this. It's but another small tick on the list of shit that'll never go away. Two years apart you grew so strong you learned to love yourself, your freedom. You and your baby were happy in a home filled with peace love harmony and exploration never a dull grey moment. Nothing ever made you cry then, now all there is is tears filling your eyes your heart full with fear and pain. The stuffiness in your voice, you are so restricted being choked to death. You were adamant you'd never go back. You said you'd never go back to him, sadly you have.
Oh! I know it's not really him, he's now long gone from your life. Too distant a memory for reminding you of what you are walking into with the new for round two . Only this time it's not just you. You are entering this new life with two, baby and you.
What are you seeking?
Can it be the honey moon sex where all else pales while you go at it like wild rabbits, he looks in your eyes like you are the only one on earth? You've been looked at like that many times before. It won't last when your heart is destroyed broken so hurt its no longer making love. Sex is now no longer anymore than just another ritualistic chore, a task you perform to keep him from breaking the door to your heart each day that little bit more.
What's really in it for you?
Is it that he holds you at night and for that short brief moment before sex, you feel loved needed wanted appreciated?
Soon you will work out he does that too only for him not you.
A good man won't control you and seclude you from living the outside world. Good men are confident they know no one else can offer you what they do, they set you free knowing you will always be back. They don't want a woman who does not want to be there. You are never left to wonder what the outside world looks like always dreaming a better life.
A good man won't leave your heart empty hollow full of sorrow, it's not your eyes a good man seeks to make wet.
Hell grasshopper! Writing this to you feels like déjà vu.
Best way to get out of a hole?
To begin with is first not to make the hole too big then don't travel so far into the hole.
These words of wisdom I've offered to you as reminder of what already you've been through.
No different the words you offer many your friend to only remain puzzled at end, why they stay with their guy.
Hence, nows a good time to ponder for good reason why?
Author. Tony Marshall
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