Do you have experience searching for or looking for anime that could help you move on? Because it's my first time doing this—searching on social media for an anime movie or series that I could watch to help me move on to someone who broke my heart.
I believe that anime would be helpful for me to avoid thinking about him. Like, for example, being a teenager again and falling in love with some handsome anime character, right?
Instead of being sad, I feel in love because of the cool personality of the character that I am watching.
But I couldn't think of any anime to watch. As I scrolled through my Loklok app, in the anime there was an action, or something revealing. So, I decided to try searching on Google. I saw a reddit link where the same question I wanted answered was there, and upon scrolling through the answers of anonymous users, I saw someone recommend "5 cm per second."
So I was like, "Okay, I will try to watch this one" because I was curious about what the title means.
Okay, I didn't pay attention to the poster of this anime when I tried to search for it on my Loklok app (that is, the application where I watched some movies, series, kdrama, etc. for free). And now that I was done watching it... I just realized that the poster looks familiar. It's like the same like "Kimi no Na Wa" Japanese drama film's poster.
If you are wondering why I screenshotted those scenes, it was because, at the beginning of this anime, I felt a heavy feeling already. These lines are the words that I think in the next few years I will be able to say in my mind—the words that I am supposed to say to the person that I can't ever forget.
You know, these two scenes are very relatable for me. I also experienced writing a love letter to someone I liked when I was in the fourth grade but ended up not continuing to write it and never giving it to him. I also experienced being teased by our classmates like this with my best friend.
What I really liked about the male lead's character is that, at his young age, he traveled very far, even if there was a strong storm, just so he could meet the person he liked, and I never did that when I was younger. I never made an effort for my crush for 10 years just so I could express my feelings, but I did do something or everything last month just so I could see the person I liked.
So, I really understand the feeling when he finally sees the girl he likes after years of not seeing her.
Okay, while watching this scene, I wondered if the meal they were eating was already spoiled. I mean, the guy arrived late, and the girl had been waiting for him for hours. But I think if you really love someone, even if the food that they cook is not that tasty, you will still eat it because it was made with love. They put in too much effort for them to make it.
Ohhh! Takaki's transformation startled me. He was attractive. But I was curious: who was "Kanae?".
Wait! This is a familiar situation for me. Don't tell me that this girl named Kanae likes him. If that's the case, maybe I will feel sorry for her here because it's hard to love someone who loves someone else already.
An advice from Kanae's Older Sister:
After she said these words, why do I feel like I will see myself in Kanae in the next episodes?
And I was right. Because in the past few days, I have been like this. It's really painful when we cannot have the person that we like. We wanted to stop loving that person, but it's hard to forget and accept that—that person belongs to someone else, and it's not for you. And watching this part makes me feel like I want to stop because it's painful to watch. But, of course, I wanted to be brave, so I continued watching it.
You know what's good when you're in love? That you can learn from them. That you are willing to change for them. Some say that love will just make you miserable, but sometimes, even if they are not the right person for you, at least they have become a lesson in your life. They become your inspiration to live. Kanae is just like me. I liked the person who taught me something about life, and here I am, starting to do things that I had never done before. Going out of my comfort zone and starting to enjoy other people's presence.
I know that they will not be together in the end. But I didn't expect that it would be like this. But I think their situation is just puppy love from the past. They become each other's first love, but it seems that their feelings are not so deep that they will find a way to continue the relationship they have. It's like their feelings suddenly disappeared, and what I understood is that the guy himself is the problem because he is struggling with his future and what will he do in life.
The hardest part when you love someone is to let them go because we thought that we were not better for them. That's why I think Takaki couldn't move on and still loved Akari. It takes him a long time to finally decide to face the future and never look back on their past.
I feel sad and hurt while watching this part because I couldn't do it. I mean, moving on to someone is painful. I think I will become like Takaki. It takes a lot of years to move on, especially when you really like that person. It's like his impact on my life when he came was so strong that, I think, it's hard for me to open the door of my heart in the next few years. Even if I just met and was with him for a short period of time,.
It hurts me when they become strangers. Here, I am thinking about the future. I know that someday we will also become like this. Just like the words he said, "Probably not until a few years, who knows?".
But of course, just like Takaki, I need to be strong. I know it's not now because it's not easy to forget. But I can also do that. When my heart finally healed, I don't know when, but I'm sure I can also move on.
Time check: it's 8:15 a.m. I couldn't sleep well because I spent my time crying because of this anime movie. I swear! I never trust Reddit recommendations now. To someone who recommend this anime, I wish I could spank you. Charought!
I thought this anime would help me to move on and reduce the pain I feel but why does it still hurt? Anyway, don't mind me. To answer the question in my title, if this anime is for people who want to move on, I think it's yes, maybe, no. Yes, if you will consider the ending as a lesson and it's easy for you to accept it, and maybe no, because for me, it's not enough for me to accept, especially how am I supposed to move on if there is a painful scene like that?
But this anime film is good. I still recommend it, even if it was aired eight years ago. But I just hope that for people like me who are in the BH era of their lives, you need to be physically and mentally prepared for this. If you're not ready to be hurt more, then don't watch it.
I just searched about this anime film, and I was surprised to know that "Kimi No Nawa" and this anime were made by the same writer and director. Now, director Makoto Shinkai is banned from me because he has always hurt me with the movies that he makes. Charought!
Oh, I didn't realize I typed very long words again. See you again on my next blog about the anime I watched!
