Feeling crap is back!
I am in unbelievable pain most days, in most positions that I sit, stand or lay down in! Everything is getting squashed it feels like, and of course kicked at quite frequently. I feel guilty if I take painkillers, so I try hard not to. Most days I succeed but there have been an occasional few where the pain has just been a bit too much to bare.
I have awful heartburn, vomiting, nausea and tiredness again too.
I have been sleeping in the day a lot, as well as most night but some nights (like now ), I am unable to sleep because the twins are clearly awake!!
I love feeling the non-painful movements inside me, and I have seen a foot heel and a bottom show their shape through my tummy skin! It's truly amazing.
Food Cravings...
I have found myself craving Lemonade, this is not a drink I would usually enjoy very often. It is hard to find a lemonade that isn't full of Aspatame, Sweetners and other bad ingredients, however it appears that Waitrose sell a brand of lemonade which doesn't have anything too scary on the label. https://www.waitrose.com/ecom/products/waitrose-lemonade-with-spanish-lemon-juice/058905-29642-29643 - and it is really nice too!
Obviously I could make home-made lemonade, but with the little energy I have at the moment I am just about achieving the minimum to keep the house running, I really don't have time for additional unnecessary tasks just now.
Also Ice-Cream... in Lemonade, or with strawberries and cream, or with Jelly, or with fruit, Jelly and Cream!!! Luckily I have only gained just over a stone in weight since I fell pregnant, but I think this is due to my inability to keep food down for the first 16 weeks and again this last week or so.... I am eating healthy food daily: Bananas, Apples, Celery, Cucumber, Carrots, Raw fruit bars, and vegetables with some dinners too. But when I crave something bad, I find it better for my mood to just give in to it in moderation.
Glucose / Blood Test
It seems like the universe is against me having the Glucose Test at the local hospital! I attended the first appointment last week or possibly the week before, and I hadn't realised that it was a fasting test, I was probably told this by my midwife when she booked it with me, but baby-brain is really taking it's toll on my memory through this pregnancy (and I'm not the best person at remembering things when I am not pregnant!).
I also hadn't known/remembered that I had to be at the hospital for 2 hours for this test. I had another important appointment that morning so I had to re-schedule for a few days later.
I was unable to attend this appointment due to the snow causing burst pipes cutting off water supply to the hospital, so it was again rescheduled for today, however when I arrived at the appointment I was quite sick and as the test involves me drinking a sugary drink, I was unable to do the test as I was unable to keep the drink down. So we have again rescheduled for this coming week!!
Hormones a'plenty!
EVERYTHING seems to be making me cry at the moment. Sometimes happy tears, but often sad ones. It usually follows an unnecessary outburst of anger or ranting along with guilt and self-pity all rolled into less than five minutes!!
It is ridiculous how out of control we can become of our own emotions when the hormones have such strength. In hindsight I usually can see that I overreacted majorly about something or other and just can't understand how it feel so justified at the time! This in realisation then makes me feel guilty and cry again!
Time to get ready...
It is now most definitely time I had everything ready because it is not uncommon for twins to be born early and although it may be a bit soon, I think it would be better to have it all ready to grab and go for whenever we need to.
I am going to get 3 bags prepared:
- Labour bag - things for me, comfy clothes, maternity pads, book, make up, deodorant, hospital notes, etc...
- Newborn bag - Clothes and wipes and nappies for the babies.
- Home-time bag - Coats and outfits for the twins and myself.
So I guess the next few weeks are about me trying to get the house as clean and organised as I can, mentally prepare my son for the babies arrivals and possible changes as much as I can without overloading his little brain with it all, and making sure the twins things are all ready.
It is incredibly inconvenient that I am finding myself so tired and nauseous every day again, and the heartburn, constipation and vomiting are also depressing me, but I will continue to try everyday to do as much as I can manage without overdoing it. I have been better at asking for help, something I struggle with, but it is important that I do at this time. I am very lucky to have good people in my life who are willing to help me. I am eternally grateful to everyone of them.
Picture Sources: (and great links)
https://www.zazzle.co.uk/cute+baby+boy+twins+stickers
https://www.seriouseats.com/2015/07/how-to-make-strawberry-ice-cream-recipe.html
https://www.pinterest.co.uk/pin/63824519692078949/
https://www.2life.io/5-things-i-love-about-being-pregnant/