That's totally fine, I understand why anyone might feel that way, but I do think it also reflects poorly on their belief that the chain has any hope at all. Either we go even harder at doing some of the really difficult work to correct where we stand since there's been little support into it, or we coast. I don't think it makes sense to explain how I plan to actually use the funds since that's not really an important aspect of a proposal, but I think it would be pretty fair also for people to be concerned that it would just be immediately dumped and I assume that will continually be brought up and thrown at me regardless of that not being the case. I also don't think it is in any way personal. I have given everything in me to have delayed even thinking about this for more than half a decade, I don't have anything to prove that isn't already visible and certainly don't feel like anyone is adversarial to that without reason. We have a feedback loop specifically for feedback, and there's no need to pretend to like something you do not.

Either way, I see zero problems in people actively campaigning against me. To say that other projects (where some should already be sustainable or have revenue models) have taken funding cuts after being funded for multiple years, while simultaneously doing solo work for them and the entire ecosystem for six full years with easily quantifiable money saved in just listings alone simply doesn't work as apples to apples here, but I'm happy to agree that it is contentious and I knew it would be. I just unfortunately can't continue to pay fully out of pocket to support the chain for another 6 years with full-time c-suite adjacent work, so I either take the big swing and try to go even harder to help change things, or I consider it all as lost as apparently the majority here do which is not really on my dance card. I also have no problem with the terrible Titanic metaphor... however where you may see the hubris of the builders and an inevitable iceberg outcome, I don't. Part of that comes from understanding that I'll need to throw myself at it pretty much full time for a few more years if I want to make it happen, so I've spent a long time helping keep everyone afloat and thinking about finding a way to carefully stretch my ability to do that. I don't think it makes sense to weigh myself down with silverware when the bulk of the rest of the chain is hiding in the lifeboats and that this proposal is the equivalent, but that will be up to each of you to decide individually.