What of if I tell you it will be our last time together?
Would you hold me close and never let go?
What of if I tell you I won't be able to see the next sunset?
What of if I told you I am scared?
What of if I told you I have been on the edge a couple of times?
What of if I told you I could have taken my last breadth now?
What of if I told you that you keep holding me back?
Yeah, you keep holding me from ending it
To you, I am a mess
A mirage of shame and disgrace
A stain to your name
I am not someone you are proud of
Yeah I failed and I may be seen as a failure
But I am no failure
Thoughts of me going away with no return will kill you
I know you care
I know you love me
But you have buried your care
You became so hard and tough on me because of my disappointment
I am sorry you feel I failed you
But just know I failed myself more
And I don't want to fail myself more by hurting you
It's funny you are the one pushing me to the edge
It's funny you are the one that's so hard on me
And yet you are the one that's making me to still take in the oxygen
You are the one that's making me still fighting
It's funny and crazy but it's just it
I wish I can let go
But I can't because of you