Image Source; MAYI Yoga Academy 7 Tips for Maintaining the Balance
Over the past few weeks it's been hectic irrespective of the fact that I've been trying to manage stress and getting things done without putting my body through any rigorous process or through the line. For someone who's wanting to maintain a balance between good health and having a productive life there is often this uncertainty as to what to do or what not to do and this ends up eating up time and at the end of the 24 hours I end of not getting anything done. There's this fear of not wanting to slip into illness because I wasn't caution enough to watch where the limit lies and due to this the will to live encapsulates the desires to have a good life. Sometimes I often come to a conclusion that I couldn't exceed my limit and even when this gives me joy I sleep unfulfilled knowing that there's this strength in have deep within that isn't backed by my body and this brings an Imbalance to my existence.
Believe me, when you've known pain you'll have things like desires and regret and this comes during times when you're in reflection mode. Sometimes I slip into depression which comes as a result of one thought clashing into another thought which in turn dive into deeper thoughts and the countenance is affected and the zeal to to stay happy by default is dampened by these feelings of pain. For someone who's is constantly irked by the worry of how the future might turn out, I find it relaxing hanging out with people I call friends, sharing laughter, indulging in activities and trying to cover my trepidations with smiles. It's often more lonely when I lay on my bed and staring at the ceiling only to discover I have hesitations sharing with my true friends the darkest secret about me, but will they call me a fighter and laud my courage? Or will they just feel pity and shame and distaste?
There's nothing so agonising as mental pain, this is knowing that you are capable but at the same time you're not. People do not want to focus on the fact that you can do it, whenever they notice an iota of weakness or frailty in you, this becomes a basis through which they decide how far you might go or not. It's often something of a disaster when you have to live life long knowing you can push too much. Life's moving at a fast pace and when we feel we could move at a faster pace but there's this psychological ineptitude and a certain reckoning that we're back benchers due to circumstances that are hardly our fault. Since we're not responsible for how frail or strong we are, this is this pain we can't often shake off and sometimes we spend time wishing we have the right to make some life deciding choices like choosing the model of our birth, our races, our gender and even parent, this might seem crazy but every human being at one point in time has wished they could have the power and fortitude to make choices irrespective of whether they're having a good life or not.
In conclusion, I thrive on the fact that pain isn't as evident and the reason for this is that people are very good at hiding pain and that's why we see deaths in the bath tubs, while drinking and overly intoxication on very hard drugs. Because the Society appears flawless if feels like one is alone in their journey of tragedy and it feels somewhat awkward to talk to someone because you don't want to be looked at funny or looked at strangely and this is why we maintain a persona creating a charade and people keep living and dying in silence when there's a whole lot more that could have been done to salvage their situation. I've recognised this and well even if I won't evidently show my pain in public I'm satisfied with living and balancing and maintaining an equilibrium even though i understand that I might never reach the topmost pinnacle because it'll be pushing beyond limitation. So the motto become staying in moderation within limit to keep thriving and existing.