In Britain, an interesting study was conducted among single women, during which researchers found that 40% of those surveyed who considered themselves ugly did not even masturbate. Women have such a strong sense of guilt and shame that they do not allow themselves any pleasure at all - because they are too fat, or too thin; excessively high or low. Or the lips are not like that. Or not such a priest. Breast is too small, or too large.
At the same time, 30% of women who are in a relationship do not enjoy sexual relations with a partner, because they can not relax in bed.
This is a very serious problem. Therefore, my advice: learn to accept yourself, your body, your sexuality, your femininity. Being in peace with yourself, you will get great pleasure from life. It is worth it to waste your energy, not to adjust to the demands of the time.