It's days like today that can really set you back and almost cause you to seclude yourself and get down on life. It's no cake walk but it always tell myself it could be way worse, stay strong , keep pushing. I don't know if many know what paraplegics and quads half to go through just to live somewhat of a normal life. I consider myself very lucky to have the use of my hands. I'm paralyzed from the chest down and have no trunk. So I explain it as being a wet noodle. By not being able to control stomach abbs and what not I'm not able to sit up. I have to use my arms to pull myself upright. Not to mention your bowel program or cathing yourself just to take a leak.
Anyways what happen was this morning my spazms were really bad, which is one of the side effects of having a higher injury at t4. When their bad they can come from nowhere to where your legs are flaying, kicking the wall ,the metal chair stirrups, my toes look broken but it's not the first time. A few times it tried to stand me up just to slam be back on the chair. Any way But I had class this am that wasn't bad till I went to The bookstore to buy the online book for the course I was taking at college. They had me bring up my course schedule so they could look up the exact book I needed for the "course or the pamphlet to access the online course material. I think all is well I go home and eat lunch but while I'm eating lunch I realized I'm missing my phone. I realized I had to drive back to the school and backtrack my steps. All and all led me back to the bookstore where they said someone found a phone and turned it into the security. So I find the phone and am thinking ok not too bad. Then I get to class and I'm having trouble entering registration code I just bought for $140. I called the teacher over and he told me it was the wrong booklet they gave me at the bookstore. So when I was at the bookstore they had me bring up my course registration on the computer to find out exactly what material I needed. So Itwas their fault for giving me the wrong booklet for the class I was taking. especially when they were the ones that looked everything up to make sure it was the right book . When I went down there to try to get the right one they told me they wouldn't refund the money and because I scratched it to get the access code I have to purchase a new one . After blaming them for giving me the wrong packet they said they'll see what they could do in the meantime I went back to the teacher and the teacher said he would handle it and get me the right one but still it I'm just like in a horrible mood . Things seem to be not going my way today and now I'm going to make myself dinner and maybe read a bit before bed. I will be praying tomorrow will be a new day with maybe a few less challenges hahaha!! I roll with the punches most of the time but every so often you get down. Trying to think positively and knowing things will work themselves out one way or another. Just sucks everything takes me 10x longer than people who can use their legs.
Sorry bout the rant just a tough day for me along with my business work, stocks, school seems like too much going on. Can't wait to finish college!!