I wake up, smell shit. Actual shit. Cat shit or baby shit. Two overeating cats, crapping away in the cat pan, all day long. Then there is the not yet potty trained two year old. I don't mind his shit. I'd rather he did poop, because the alternate isn't good. I wake up, brew some coffee and remove the source of stink. This is how I start my day. "The best part of waking up is Foldgers in your cup" Bullshit. Something is wrong with my coffee pot because no matter what brand or flavor I brew, it tastes like shit. Onto instant coffee, which is actually remarkable good to my taste buds. I drink a cup, last half is cold due to all the places my immediate attention is needed. Kids, cats, phone calls. I don't mind the kids, I'm happy to be there mom. I don't mind the two year old insisting on a cup, that he will spill, it is really adoring to hear him say "uht oh!" I do mind the cats. These cute furballs have a job, catch mice and spiders and sure, they do their job, I don't deal with rodents or bugs, but, that does not give them the right to wreck the house at 3 a.m., eat an absurd amount of cat food, crap a ridiculous amount, stalk me, make me chase them back inside every time I open a door, randomly knock things over, etc etc etc, cat doings! I thought I liked cats. Then I got 2 of them. Not so sure anymore.
Then there are phone calls to return, business to take care of and it never goes smoothly. Today for example, I have to order a new debit card, mine is going to expire. There is no option on the automated system to do this. There is no option to talk to a human. Five phone calls later, my card is still going to expire. All I can do is report it lost, stolen, or damaged, have my perfectly working card disabled until the new one arrives. When I do this, it will probably arrive with an expiration date of 04/17, ya know, for kicks.
Of course, my favorite sites online are down or running much slower than my patience. The music stops, skips or refuses to play. My AI assistant needs fired, but unfortunately there isn't one to replace it with. How this can be in this day and age, I have no idea.
After many spills and messes, cats being fed twice, cat pan scooped 3 times, I still smell shit and can't keep up with the mess because no one in this house naps anymore. Time to get ready for work. I waitress. The customers are usually not problematic. My fellow co workers...not so much. My employer has hired 5 new people and 4 of them need fired and one of them is working on a black eye from me.
I'd like to think of myself as peaceful, always seeking peace, treating others with love and acceptance because that is what I want. Then, as I begin to think I'm onto some real "OM", someone comes into my life to deliver an unspoken message which is something like, "you don't know calm at all, I'm here to test that". I don't like having negative thoughts, I have battled them, accepted them, channeled them, wrote them down, meditated on them, just about everything one can do before speaking them. So hi ho hi ho, off to work I go and I really have to try not to put this ugly, smug cunt in a head lock and scream in her ear to leave me the fuck alone. Even now, I am sorry to rant here. I hope my anger does not boil over and rise the anger in another. I hope to look back at this and laugh or cause another to laugh. Please forgive me if I have affected you negatively.
After work and no head locks, I come home to the smell of cat shit. The box needs scooped. The littlest cat is loudly clinking the food dish around the kitchen. Random things are on the floor, lots of meowing, a few escape attempts (one of these days I am just going to let them run out the door, bye-bye kit-tee-kat!) Once the needs are met of every being under 4ft tall, I take care of myself. A few moments of silence to write and what not. Then its off to bed, a comfortable bed, nice warm blankets. I close my eyes, fall asleep and have nightmares.
