I've spent alot of time thinking about this in a very similar light... I became completely obsessed with knowing all of the world's answers only to find that maybe we weren't meant to know. So mamy questions and so little answers.
One time, while soul seeking through ketamine and nitris demensions, I reached a vortex and heard a computerized woman's voice say "you are nothing but a feeling." It echoed through my brain as I was sucked further into the vortex. I stopped losing feeling in my body.... Or maybe I ONLY felt my body? I'm not sure but the deeper I spun into the vortex, the more terrified I became. To be nothing but a feeling couldn't possibly be any better than being a human being, capable of multiple feelings and thoughts and all.... I started screaming "No! No, no!" Over and over again and eventually sprung back into reality like a fuckin jack in the box.
There are people who sincerely believe we live within a simulation... And after that k-hole vision, I've questioned it myself.